You know what....I don't really call it losing control or binging or anything awful like that. I think it's satisfying a need. It's like an addiction to food. It's ok to cheat every now and then as long as you don't do it every day. So you had 2 ham sammiches, PPFT so what if thats what you wanted then thats what you wanted. Don't beat yourself up over it. It was one time. You're not gona set yourself back just by having something you want NOW AND THEN (in moderation). Keep up your spirits and don't be so hard on yourself . The other night I had a momentary laps of reason and had some good garden fresh foods. We had pork chops on the grill, fried squash, corn, and mashed potatos. Yes I ate and yes I ate ALOT!!!!!! I don't do it every day but that was the first really big garden trip so I indulged. Now if it was something like eating a half gal of ice cream then that's whan I would be worried. I'm sorry that you are feeling this way and it is hard for people like us. I know exactly where you are coming from. My hubby is like nspear's hubby. He can eat anything he wants and just by watching him I can feel the fat just bubbling up on me LOL. Some people are just more apt to gain than others. But, YOU have to maintain control of your feelings. If you want to have 2 sammiches for lunch, then have 2 sammiches for lunch. Just eat lighter the rest of the day. My doctor told me something that helps me alot. She said "THE WEIGHT DIDN'T GO ON OVER NIGHT AND IT'S NOT GONA COME OF OVER NIGHT!!!" I keep that in mind and it helps me when I get discouraged and want to just stop and go on an eating RAGE. We are all here for each other and that really makes me feel good to know that other people are having the same day to day struggles that I am.
There ARE people in the world that DO have more to worry about than 2 ham sammiches, but the eating is YOUR demon and it's perfectly OK for you to have worries about it. Don't feel guilty because you worry about such a small thing....to you it's not a small thing it's a really BIG thing or you wouldn't worry about it, right?? People have different lives as they also have different worries and struggles.
If you need a friend I'm here for you. I won't promise I can give you all the right answers but I do have a dry shoulder and I'm a pretty good talker. Perk up and smile and keep ypur head up you're done great so far. By the way.....I have had ham sammiches for breakfast too. This morning I had a cucumber :O now that's really wierd lol.