
Guilt For No Reason
HELLO EVERYONE,
I'M ANOTHER NEWBIE. I'VE BEEN ON PHEN FOR ABOUT 9 TO 10 WEEKS NOW. I HAVE LOST 30 LBS (24 LBS ON PHEN).
I WILL START OUT WITH A LITTLE BACKROUND: I HAVE BEEN ON SO MANY DIETS! WEIGHT WATCHERS, HERBALIFE, SOUTHBEACH, ATKINS, LIQUID, LOW FAT...YOU GET THE POINT. WELL NEEDLESS TO SAY, I ALWAYS END UP FAILING. AND, EVERYTIME I FAIL I GET THIS OVERWHELMING FEELING OF GUILT. I ALWAYS THINK TO MYSELF... ANOTHER FAILED DIET, WILL I EVER LOSE WEIGHT?! BUT, SINCE I'VE BEEN OF PHEN I'VE BEEN DOING REALLY WELL. I HAVE NEVER GONE THIS LONG BEFORE WITHOUT GIVING UP.
UNFORTUNATELY, IT'S BEEN BITTERSWEET. ON ONE HAND I'M SO PROUD OF MYSELF AND IT FEELS SO GOOD WHEN OTHERS NOTICE THE WEIGHTLOSS. BUT, ABOUT THE PAST COUPLE OF WEEKS I HAVE ALSO BEEN FEELING GUILTY. IT'S ALMOST AS IF MY MIND IS SO USED TO THE ROUTINE OF DIETING AND THEN GIVING UP THAT, I'M FEELING THE GUILT AND UGLINESS THAT I FEEL WHEN I'VE FAILED...EVEN THOUGH I HAVEN'T FAILED. I'VE DONE GREAT.
SOUNDS A LITTLE WEIRD, I KNOW. BUT I'M HOPING SOME ONE CAN RELATE AND MAYBE SHARE SOME INSIGHT.
THANKS FOR READING! GOOD LUCK TO ALL!
Hot Mama
FEB 2008- 224 LBS (highest weight)
MAY 2008- 218 LBS ( -6 lbs on my own in 3 mos. start phen 5/15/08)
JUN 2008- 203 LBS (month 1 w/ phen -15 lbs) 
JUL 2008- 194 LBS (month 2 -9 lbs reached 1st goal under 200  )
AUG 2008- 197 LBS  (+3 lbs got off track, but back on now!)
FINAL GOAL: 150 BY JAN 2009
Last edited by ~Hot Mama~ : July 22nd, 2008 at 10:36 AM.
Reason: WRONG FORUM...SHOULD BE IN EXPERIENCE W PHEN
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