[amethyst]

Hi Everyone,

I am a 32 F from Oregon, I have 3 kids and I work fulltime. I just stared Phen on friday July 18th at 224 lbs. I would like to reach my goal weight of 140 lbs by new years.

I have many obsicles in my way, first I am an alcoholic and trying to not drink is very hard. My addiction is now just a way of life for me. When I get home from work I drink 4-6 beers before bed. I know that seems like I would be drunk everyday, but tolorance has taken over and now it feels like a maintenance addiction. I drink because of stress and various events in my past. I eat when I'm lonely, upset, bored ...ect.

I also have severe depression and anxiety that has forced me to take meds to control. I have anger issues that I have learned to control. My meds help with the depression and mostly with my anxiety.

I really want this to work for me since I am so unhappy with the quality of life I have right now. We just went on vacation camping and i didn't even go swimming in the lake this year because I will not be caught in a swimming suit, and i feel too uncomfortable in shorts. I'm sick of this way of life. I am generally, on an everyday level the "happy go lucky" type at work, the one who says hi to everyone and makes you smile. On the inside I feel ugly and fat and mad at myself for letting this happen.

I have been married for 6 years and my husband is wonderful and supportive, but he drinks too. We really can't go anywhere or do anything without the icechest and beer. I realize that this is a horrible example to my 15, 11 and 5 year old, but of course I have justified and downplayed the issued to make it feel "normal."

Since I started taking Phen on Friday, it actually help me drink less beer. I just don't want one. All weekend I have drank a few but only because of habit and not because I needed one. I think this is a positive thing. It's really hard to change one habit, but trying to slow down on drinking, and change my eating habits is very difficult. I drink alot of water and this really helps with hunger and with drinking.

My husband is very supportive of my decision and has been going on walks with me. We take our 5 year old daughter with us and she rides her new bike. I feel great when I come home.

I'm sure I'm not the only one who has a hard time getting the motivation to exercise, but once I'm there I feel great inside and out.

Well thanks for listening! I hope that my journey will be full of great memories and packed with milestones.

~Amethyst

[Cmarie123]

Welcome and good luck! Stopping a habit/addiction is extremely hard. I had a bad addiction to emotional eating. Lukcily with Phen, Weight Watchers and the support of everyone here, I have been able to kick that addiction. If you are determined and focused, you can overcome your habits as well. GOOD LUCK!

[trishri30]

GOOD LUCK TO YOU. KEEP READING THE POSTS ON HERE THEY ARE VERY HELPFUL.

[amethyst]

Thank you! I feel positive and this site is a great tool for new perspectives.

BTW you look great!

~Amethyst

[amethyst]

Thank you! I will keep reading. I hope I dont get addicted to this site though, I should be out walking lol.

~Amy

[rosesun]

Good luck to you, you can do this we all can do this. Everybody has their own little demon on their shoulder talking to them.For some it may be food, alcohol, smoking whatever it is WE CAN GET THROUGH IT AND MEET OUR GOALS WITH SUCESS. for me my demon is SWEETS i LOVE SWEETS CAKE,CANDY, BROWNIES, ROLLS , YOU NAME IT but it is very hard to cut the habit of reaching for those things when im hungry.So now i try to stock up on fruits and healthy snacks yes it is very hard but i will pull thru this, you see everyone has their own addictions believe me if there was a place for sweet addicts i would enroll myself for the 12 step program. GOOD LUCK KEEP READING THE BOARDS FOR MOTIVATION.

[juliegeraci]

I am an alcoholic too. Some days I have 2 drinks, other days 10. I was sober 16 months before so I know I can do it again. I am going back to AA this week. Have you tried a local meeting? It really helps.

[amethyst]

Hi,

I have only gone to AA a couple of times 4 years ago. It may be my attitude, but I didn't find the meeting helpful at all. I appreciate the suggestion though and hope that it is a positive tool for you. I was sober when I was pregnant with my 5 year old, but soon after she was born I was back at it again.

On the up side, the water intake has really been helping me as well as the Phen with subsiding my craving.

Good Luck to you!
~Amethyst

[amethyst]

Thanks for your reply,

I have the carb addiction on top of all this! I love breads, pasta's and anything else that is carb-filled. That is gonna be tough! I will continue to read posts on here to keep my chin up.

Thanks!
~Amethyst

[insearchofme]

Welcome aboard. We are all behind you 100%. YOU CAN DO THIS!

[Friday]

THROW THE BEER OUT! Get rid of it if its not around you will be less tempted to drink it. The meds should help you control the urge of wanting it anyways. This is the time in your life that you can turn it all around and make better choices for yourself. I too have a bad habit, luckily for me I would only gain if I did not learn how to control "the munchies" But beer is so loaded with Calories and carbs and is not going to help with the weight loss what so ever. TAKE IT ONE DAY AT A TIME. Today go home and don't drink for the first time ever, tomorrow follow the same and take it one day at a time. Eventually lbs will fall off and you will not want to hurt your figure for that beer. I think once you start losing weight you will eventually be able to get your health in gear and feel way better about yourself. You have to use the Phen as a tool and not a crutch remember that. This is your time to lose the weight are you going to let your addiction get in the way of a hot beach body??? You can do it and we are all here for you. Chug a water- lose a lb!!!

[KCMO28]

Good luck to you. I love to go out and have a beer too, but now if I go out I bring a Sprite Zero. It tastes great, zero calories, no caffine, and kinda subs for a drink for me.

You can do it!

[WeepnWillow]

Good Luck to you girl! Yep I totally agree with everyone else....we all have our addictions. Mine is sweets too, then again, I just love food! My mom is totally addicted to diet cokes, i am soo serious. I have actually found myself sneeking to eat, because I didnt want my family to see me. This site has been a inspiration to me. I feel sometimes just loggin on and seeing other ppls progress makes me feel better and motivates me. So stick around and take it one day at a time!

[novembersun]

Hi all...I'm a newbie. Just started taking Phen a couple of days ago. So far I have lost 8.8lbs. I have tons of pounds to shed off and I just hope that I am strong enough to stick on my diet. I exercise everyday now. I walk for an hour everyday when I got back from work. Hope this will help me lose weight.