I really need accountability partners for 2010!!!

[Mary-Mary]

Hey girls just a quick note, u no how my stomach has been hurting sooo bad the last few days, well it's gotten worse ( it's not pms cramps ) it's real serious stomach pains, to the point I can hardly stand up n walk, so I'm going to be spending my afternoon in the hosp gotta drink some dye and then do a cat scan I'm so scared cause it could b several different things going wrong, the mesh in my stomach from hernia repair has been recalled , it could b something with that, or could b scar tissue or colon issues ! Please say some prayers for me, I will keep in touch and let u all no how everything turns out! I have been surgery free for a year and I hope 2010 won't turn out to b a bad year that 2008 was for me! Keep up the good work girls and I will respond to ur messages tonight taz

Oh girl I hope that you start feeling better and please let us know whats going on, you are on my prayers.

[EEB310]

Oh Taz sorry to hear that!! I will def keep you in my thoughts and prayers!! Let us know how it goes!

[xblackbettyx]

Omg Taz, I will definitely keep you in my prayers! That is crazy, I hope they can figure out what it is and that it's not something that requires surgery.

[kimberco]

Hello Ladies!! It is finally the weekend for me!! I worked my second 16 hour shift yesterday and a single today and I am beat. I think there is no shred in my future tonight. There is always tomorrow. I forgot to bring my phen to work today, so I am feeling a little hungry but I am resisting temptation and trying to fill the void with more water.

[slmoreno5803]

I LEARNED A VALUABLE LESSON TODAY. IT WAS MY ONLY DAY OFF THIS WEEK AND THE FIRST IN A LONG TIME. I HAD SO MANY THINGS PLANNED TODAY THAT I DIDNT HAVE TIME TO STOP AND EAT ANYTHING UNTIL 7PM. I STARTED MY JOGGING TRAINING TODAY. I WALKED FOR ABOUT 10 MIN AND THEN JOGGED FOR ABOUT 3 AND THEN WALKED FOR ANOTHER 10 AND JOGGED ANOTHER 3. IT WAS COLD OUT SO IT WAS REALLY HARD ON MY LUNGS BECAUSE OF MY ASTHMA. I DIDNT HAVE AN INHALER BUT I THINK IF I DID I WOULD HAVE BEEN ABLE TO RUN LONGER. I WOULD LIKE TO HAVE ACCESS TO AND INSIDE TRACK BUT IT WONT BE LONG TILL IT GETS WARM ENOUGH TO REALLY DO THIS THE RIGHT WAY. MY KNEES AND ANKLES WERE A LITTLE WOBBLY BUT I AM SURE THAT IS TO BE EXPECTED WITH MY WEIGHT. I AM 6 LBS DOWN FOR MY FIRST WEEK AND THAT IS ENOUGH HOPE FOR ME. I PLAN TO BE JOGGING 6 MIN NEXT WEEK AFTER I GET MY INHALER. BY THE TIME I REACH 200 I WANT TO BE JOGGING A MILE. ANYWAY NOT EATING WAS A BIG MISTAKE. I HAVE A REAL HEAD ACHE AND AM REALLY TIRED. HOW MANY MGS OF PHEN ARE YOU ALL ON? THE DOC GAVE ME 15 TO START SO THAT WE CAN MONITOR MY TRIGGERS AND SO FAR I DONT THINK IT IS ANYTHING LIKE THE DRUGS I USED TO DO. THE ONLY THING THAT REMINDS ME OF IT IS THE DRY MOUTH IF I DONT DRINK ENOUGH. I THINK I WILL BE OK TO GO UP TO THE 30 BUT WILL IT MAKE ME LOSE MORE WEIGHT FASTER OR DOES IT JUST MAKE YOU LESS HUNGRY?

[tazgirl31]

Hey everyone, it's 11 pm im in tears as I write this, I just got out of hosp, the cat scan shows another hernia in my stomach my bowels are stuck in the mesh from the previous hernia repair! I knew somethingwas so wrong cause the pain is so horrible I'm in! They wanted to do emergency surgery tonight but my dr was not here will b out a week! So the surgeon I seen tonight was able to push my bowels back in but tonight and everyday I have to feel my stomach and if they push out at all I have to get back to hosp fast! Ad it will strangleate my bowels and could kill me! I'm just so scared right now, I can't explain it, I jus been thro so much and really thought it was all over with!now will have another surgery and there goes my weight loss! Please pray for me pray I will have the strength to make it thro this! I can't stop crying n worryin right now! I will let u all no tommorow more! I'm just gonna go lay down for now!

[EEB310]

Taz - I feel soo bad for you! You don't deserve this! You have been thru so much. Please be very careful and don't hesitate to go to that hospital if you need to!! You will still be in my thoughts and prayers.

[Mary-Mary]

Hey everyone, it's 11 pm im in tears as I write this, I just got out of hosp, the cat scan shows another hernia in my stomach my bowels are stuck in the mesh from the previous hernia repair! I knew somethingwas so wrong cause the pain is so horrible I'm in! They wanted to do emergency surgery tonight but my dr was not here will b out a week! So the surgeon I seen tonight was able to push my bowels back in but tonight and everyday I have to feel my stomach and if they push out at all I have to get back to hosp fast! Ad it will strangleate my bowels and could kill me! I'm just so scared right now, I can't explain it, I jus been thro so much and really thought it was all over with!now will have another surgery and there goes my weight loss! Please pray for me pray I will have the strength to make it thro this! I can't stop crying n worryin right now! I will let u all no tommorow more! I'm just gonna go lay down for now!

Taz I am sorry that you are going through this and I hope that everything will get better but I want to tell you to be positive you are not going to gain any weight! you are smart and I know you can do it...as far as the surgery I wish you lots of luck and be strong...take lots of care.
and if you feel that you need to talk you can call me or text me you have my number

[shoefiend]

Taz, I am so so sorry that you have to go thru this after all you have been thru. Please make sure you get lots of rest, stay positive and strong and run to the the er if you think anything at all is not right. You will not gain the weight back, you are too strong, a fighter and you will get thru this. You will be in my thoughts and prayers to take away the pain and get better. Please, if you need anything at all let us know! We are all here for you for whatever and whenever you need anything!

[slmoreno5803]

Oh my gosh Taz, I cant even imagine your pain. My mother went thru something similer when I was a little girl and I remember the pain that she was in. I am so sorry. You will be in my prayers til this is over. As for gaining the weight back, you are a very strong person to have lost so much thru pure determination as it is. " As a man thinks, therefore he shall also be" think strong healthy and thin my friend you will make it.

[tazgirl31]

Thank u all for ur kind words and support, it really makes it easier for me to get thro this , alot of my fear is coming from my surgeries I had two years ago, things went wrong and I nearly died, I ended up in icu on life support fighting for my life a month, so all those flash backs are haunting me and making me so scared! I called my dr who did all my past surgeries but he can't see me until the 27 which the secratary said she would get me in earlier if anyone else cancels! I'm not sure I can wait this long, I'm really sick n in pain, the surgeon didn't want me to b on pain meds as it will constipate me and make more problems, so I'm trying to tough it out! I'm also trying to find me a band to wear around my stomach to help hold the hernia in, my stomach just feels so bloated n big, the hernia is above my belly button, the lady hernia is right behind my belly button! I'm keeping a eye on this area but each time I have to check I panic cause just feeling this huge weak spot in my stomach is scary, I'm never going to b able to lift or anything, my stomach is just to weak, even more my chance of ever being pregnant is prob out of the question now cause with all this how could I deliver a baby! Idk what would u all think?I will keep u all updated, I'm going to try my best to eat right and keep my weight off, I'm not even weighing myself right now cause they put alot of fluids in me last nite and then all the dye I had to drink! It would just stress me more to see I gained! Hope u all are doing well, keep exercising n working hard, u can workout for me to I'm so happy I have u all to help me thro all this! Thanx sooo much! Taz

[xblackbettyx]

Ugh that stinks! I am sure any corrective surgeries will go smoothly if you have to have them. Surgery is always a little bit scary especially if you have already had a bad experience. I always get so scared when I have to have surgery but I just make sure to pray that my surgeons are going to do their best and that I stay safe. Still scary though....

So yesterday wasn't exactly great. I was getting sick of eating gross salads with local dressing and bread that tasted like cardboard so I had some pretzels and cheese for lunch and then I had Max & Erma's for dinner. I had French Onion soup which was to die for and half a a club sandwich (bacon, ham, turkey, cheese, mayo, tomatoe, ect). It was great and I felt satisfied. I did not have any late night snacks last night and I was up late. I drank a lot of water yesterday so that was a plus. I was 219 this morning so I can't complain since I cheated and didn't GAIN weight, I also didn't lose it but what can I expect lol

I was going through and re-reading my Atkins book and locarbing makes so much sense to me. Not to mention some of the recipes sound SO FREAKING GOOD! I really might give it a go. I wish they made locarb microwaves meals for like work and stuff lol That Would be nice.

[southernbelle88]

tazgirl- sooo sorry to hear about your hernias I know you have been saying your stomach has been hurting a lot. I hope it all goes well for you! You're strong you can do it!

Day 4 and the scale hasn't moved .. ughh

[shoefiend]

Taz - I really didnt feel like working out for my 2nd 30 minutes tonight, but I thought of you and it pushed me thru

I hope you are getting some much needed rest and trying not to stress out too much. I def think it is a good idea not to get on the scale right now... those fluids they pump you up with at the hospital really can cause alot of bloat. Even tho it is only water weight, I dont want you to get more stressed. Did the doc mention why the hernia happened again, is it becuz of the recall on the mesh already there? As far as having a baby, if they fix it correctly I wouldnt think there would be an issue....My bff that has had tons of surgeries, has had them in the same spots on her lower back, head and tummy. Her skin is very thin and weak on her tummy and back due to all of the surgeries. Plus because of her additional medical issues she was told she could actually die in labor but she has managed to have 2 beautiful children. I am not sure if this would be considered the same, her issues compared with yours since I am not a doc....but there is always hope. So please do not get discouraged, you have worked so hard for you goals, dreams and accomplishments. I strongly believe positive thoughts bring positive things, so I will be sending you some positive mojo

[shoefiend]

Xblack - Thanks for making me hungry and a little jealous - lol I luv french onion soup and club sandwiches! I have heard alot of people having great success on Atkins. As for myself, I tried it a few years back for about a week and couldnt go to the bathroom, felt very tired and didnt lose weight. I didnt do any research on it tho so I probably was doing it all wrong! I have considered trying it again once I reach a plateau to shake things up. I have read more about it now and and have a better understanding. Plus the recipes do sound very yummy! Alot better than lettuce every day But I am with you as far as wishing they had some quick frozen dinners for when you are on the run....Is South Beach Similiar? I know they are like healthy fats and I thought low carb? They sell frozen South Beach dinners if the diets are similiar...

Southernbelle - dont get discouraged! Sometimes I will weigh myself and not notice a difference until the 5th or 6th day. I dont know if it is my scale acting jacked up or my body acting jacked up. I used to just weigh myself 1x per week when I visit the doc, but now it is starting to become an obsession - lol I honestly enjoyed it much more to see the big number at the end of the week instead of fretting over it everyday. But I cant stop myself!

As for me, been working my booty off this week trying to hit my next mini mini goal of 239. I hope it works cuz I go weigh in tomorrow with the doc. I really wanted to get on my home scale today but I resisted cuz I wanted to get in some more workouts before the final weigh in - lol So I am waiting til 1st thing in the am after I do my cardio then off to the doc. Well, gotta go make dinner for the fam, everyone have a good night!

[wishflower]

I was going through and re-reading my Atkins book and locarbing makes so much sense to me. Not to mention some of the recipes sound SO FREAKING GOOD! I really might give it a go. I wish they made locarb microwaves meals for like work and stuff lol That Would be nice.

I've been reading more about Atkins/low carbing. I don't think I'm going to do a strict sense or induction, or atleast not at this time, but I've started to watch and curb them since Monday.

A good website I found with awesome forums for lowcarbing diets plus oher weight loss related things is lowcarbfriends . com

[xblackbettyx]

Shoefiend - LOL I am sorry! I am so in love with French Onion soup - the bread. Something about the soggy bread turns me off so I just have them take it out. Anyway, it was some dang-on good soup! Very flavorful and I bet it wasn't THAT bad (although french onion always appears to have little pieces of fat floating on the top of it?).

Wishflower - Yeserday I hoped on a lo-carb forum and was really amazed to see a ton of recipes. I am not sure if I can keep it together lo carbing though. I never really miss carbs until I know I can't have them. That and I hate the fact my mouth always feel disgusting on atkins, like I never brushed my teeth so I have to chew gum (which is like, 1 carb per piece). I dunno if I will stay under 20g of carbs per day, maybe 30 or 40 though. Seems a little more doable right now. There are some people on the locarb forum who eat NO (less than 5) carbs per day! Amazing lol

It seems I am stuck at 219-221. Grr. I am hoping maybe lo carbing will pull the lbs off quicker.

[southernbelle88]

You went 5 days with no difference too? Ok so I'm not the only one lol thanks for that I feel a little better.

Well class is over for the week! That means I finally can go to the gym! I'm going for 2 hours tonight and I'm going to work my butt off so I will see a difference in the scale! I'm also going out for drinks tonight and I'm really nervous because I don't want to have too many calories. Anyone know good, low calorie drinks? I usually have michelob ultra which has 110 cals or crown and diet coke. I definitely won't be drinking a lot. Going back to the gym tomorrow and Sunday too! How is everyone doing today? Tgif!!!

[Mary-Mary]

You went 5 days with no difference too? Ok so I'm not the only one lol thanks for that I feel a little better.

Well class is over for the week! That means I finally can go to the gym! I'm going for 2 hours tonight and I'm going to work my butt off so I will see a difference in the scale! I'm also going out for drinks tonight and I'm really nervous because I don't want to have too many calories. Anyone know good, low calorie drinks? I usually have michelob ultra which has 110 cals or crown and diet coke. I definitely won't be drinking a lot. Going back to the gym tomorrow and Sunday too! How is everyone doing today? Tgif!!!

Yeah drinking is packed with calories and not to mention the boated feeling afterwards not fun! but just make good decisions and you should be fine.
good luck!

[xblackbettyx]

You went 5 days with no difference too? Ok so I'm not the only one lol thanks for that I feel a little better.

Well class is over for the week! That means I finally can go to the gym! I'm going for 2 hours tonight and I'm going to work my butt off so I will see a difference in the scale! I'm also going out for drinks tonight and I'm really nervous because I don't want to have too many calories. Anyone know good, low calorie drinks? I usually have michelob ultra which has 110 cals or crown and diet coke. I definitely won't be drinking a lot. Going back to the gym tomorrow and Sunday too! How is everyone doing today? Tgif!!!

Yes it stinks, making me mad but I do have to admit to myself that I have not been really following a strict diet at all. I haven't been throwing it to the wind, but I haven't really done a whole lot either.

[southernbelle88]

Yes it stinks, making me mad but I do have to admit to myself that I have not been really following a strict diet at all. I haven't been throwing it to the wind, but I haven't really done a whole lot either.

I haven't been eating enough and I'm guessing that's why I haven't lost. I started phen last Thursday and I was 247.4. the Monday before that I got on the scale for the first time in months and it read 253.2. That was a huge shocker. I'm 239 a little over a week later so that is pretty good but I have been 239 for 4 days now.

Good luck with eating better you can do it! Keep me updated on your progress seeing everyone do so good is really motivating

[wishflower]

Wishflower - Yeserday I hoped on a lo-carb forum and was really amazed to see a ton of recipes. I am not sure if I can keep it together lo carbing though. I never really miss carbs until I know I can't have them. That and I hate the fact my mouth always feel disgusting on atkins, like I never brushed my teeth so I have to chew gum (which is like, 1 carb per piece). I dunno if I will stay under 20g of carbs per day, maybe 30 or 40 though. Seems a little more doable right now. There are some people on the locarb forum who eat NO (less than 5) carbs per day! Amazing lol

It seems I am stuck at 219-221. Grr. I am hoping maybe lo carbing will pull the lbs off quicker.

Holy jeez, I can't imagine eating NO [0/Less than 5] carbs at all. Not only because of the way I think I'd feel, but the restrictiveness to... well, everything! Lol.

I've been doing pretty good at keeping them under 30-40 since starting this week. The 2nd day I did 20 and under, but I don't know about
every day.

[xblackbettyx]

I haven't been eating enough and I'm guessing that's why I haven't lost. I started phen last Thursday and I was 247.4. the Monday before that I got on the scale for the first time in months and it read 253.2. That was a huge shocker. I'm 239 a little over a week later so that is pretty good but I have been 239 for 4 days now.

Good luck with eating better you can do it! Keep me updated on your progress seeing everyone do so good is really motivating

Thank you belle. I think you and I have the SAME problem. During the day I never eat enough, I am not hungry at all on phen but when night hits I get CRAVINGS. Usually I try to push them aside and try not to worry about it.

[tazgirl31]

Hey everyone, I jus had to come check in tonight, I'm not doing to well I feel like I am in a mess for real, I have been so stressed n overwhelmed from worrying my head off about my upcoming surgery I have turned to comfort foods, I'm so angry at myself I no I'm up 5 pounds mayb even more I feel fat n uguly and just miserable! My hernia has got my stomach so pushed out or something! I'm so scared I'm gonna get fat again, cause I haven't cared these past few days n just been eating whatever I want! Plus on my period to so yea I'm dealing with all sorts of feelings, emotions, and pain n worry! Plus everyone else is making it worse putting all this crap in my head that I'm not eating right I need to eat more to get my body ready for surgery, ugh idk I'm just stressed out to the max and trust me I need help bad cause I'm outta control since all this and since I can't workout now! I'm jus feeling yucky and lke a failure so anyways sorry I'm sounding so negative I'm really just struggling right now and I'm so scared i'm not going to b able to get back on track n keep off this weight after surgery and everything! I'm trying to think positive like someone told me earlier on here, u r what u think and that's true cause I'm thinking like a failure and that's what I am right now!so I'm planning on checking in here dailey until my surgery and just going to b honest about how I'm feeling n going thro so mayb someone can help me get thro all this! I'm really happy for u all and happy to see all these posts!!!! Keep going girls!! Taz

[xblackbettyx]

Hey everyone, I jus had to come check in tonight, I'm not doing to well I feel like I am in a mess for real, I have been so stressed n overwhelmed from worrying my head off about my upcoming surgery I have turned to comfort foods, I'm so angry at myself I no I'm up 5 pounds mayb even more I feel fat n uguly and just miserable! My hernia has got my stomach so pushed out or something! I'm so scared I'm gonna get fat again, cause I haven't cared these past few days n just been eating whatever I want! Plus on my period to so yea I'm dealing with all sorts of feelings, emotions, and pain n worry! Plus everyone else is making it worse putting all this crap in my head that I'm not eating right I need to eat more to get my body ready for surgery, ugh idk I'm just stressed out to the max and trust me I need help bad cause I'm outta control since all this and since I can't workout now! I'm jus feeling yucky and lke a failure so anyways sorry I'm sounding so negative I'm really just struggling right now and I'm so scared i'm not going to b able to get back on track n keep off this weight after surgery and everything! I'm trying to think positive like someone told me earlier on here, u r what u think and that's true cause I'm thinking like a failure and that's what I am right now!so I'm planning on checking in here dailey until my surgery and just going to b honest about how I'm feeling n going thro so mayb someone can help me get thro all this! I'm really happy for u all and happy to see all these posts!!!! Keep going girls!! Taz

Girl, you are anything BUT a failure. You have accomplished amazing things some people will never do - Losing over 100lbs is a BIG DEAL. You're stressed, it happens. I would be stressed and pissed off too if I had to have surgery. It's stressful especially when you have had the experience you did. You are so much healthier this time so I am sure it will go smoothly - it still stinks though and it won't be any less stressful. What went wrong last time you had surgery if you don't mind me asking?

Remember, although food can be comforting it won't make things any more unstressful and will only make you feel worse. It's really hard to keep on track when you're dealing with all kinds of emotions, cravings and general crapiness. It is hard to stay on track when you do not feel well - I had surgery in Nov to remove a cyst but prior to that I could barely move some weeks. It stunk - I ate like crap and all my progress shot down the toilet. I was so disappointed in myself...don't be like me Taz! You're so awesome, you're strong and you've done so well! Remember that!

Last night I ate a piece of pizza and a cinnastick and felt like crap. I was amazingly so disappointed in myself which made me kind of happy in a weird way - I feel bad for eating like crap (which I hope will make me eat better). I realized that my craving for the pizza and the actual eating of the pizza were two different things. I ate the pizza, it was good but I realized it didn't make me happy or feel better after I ate it. I felt like crap and mentally I felt like crap.

[tazgirl31]

Xblackbetty,
thanx so much for ur kind words and being here for me, the reason I am so stressed is cause 2 years ago I went in to have a cyst taken off my right ovary, was supposed to b miner surgery and go home same day, well that never happened they admitted me saying they just wanted to keep an eye on me, well by the first day I knew something was wrong cause I had these surgerys before n knew what it felt like, I complained of pain for three days and was told it was the gas from the surgery, just get up n walk it off! I could barely walk let alone breathe! By third nite I told my hubby if he don't get me outta this hosp I'm going to die tonight! I knew it! So they called a surgeon up to see me did blood work and my white blood count was way elevated over 15,000 the dr said we gotta get u into surgery right now, this was at midnite! I was in surgery 5 hours, I came out with a ileostomy,2 collaspsed lungs, renal failure and in ICU on life support, wound vacs and all sorts of things! Needless to say the obgyn who did my cyst surgery took a inch n half of my colon, and for three days I leaked my own stool into my body! I had less then 6 hours to live! I was so full of infection ! The real pain is that I was heading to see a fertility dr to do Ivf to try to have a baby! Now my chance r slim to none because of my diseased tubes, n ovaries n everything inside of me! Ivf is my only chance but I had to take all my savings for Ivf to live on the next year when I was unable to work! I stayed in hosp a month fighting for my life! I had to go thro 8 surgeries in less then a year! Had to wear the horrible ileostomy a year was bad! Then end of 2008 I got a big hernia from all the previous surgeries, my stomach is just so weak now, this is a second hernia now it's like it will never end for me! I don't no how much more I can go through u no?! I'm 33 and have been thro more surgeries then people could ever imagine! So my biggest fear now is that I won't make it out of this surgery alive! I'm so scared of dying, it's like i have been trying to put all this behind me this last year, wakin up at nite gasping for air remembering being on the ventalater! And now I'm having to relive all this again! I'm a strong person, but I feel like it's just to much right now to go thro again! My body is soo tired and worn out! When they go inside me this time they have to reopen me up, they can't do it lapro cause of all the adhesions inside me, they also will fix hernia, and clean up all the adhesions n scar tissue inside me! There's alot of work to b done the dr said! Please just continue to keep me in ur prayers that god will give me the strength I need and will help me thro my fears! I just don't want to b so scared when I go into that OR! Sorry this is so long but u can see now why I'm in such a panic state of mind! Taz

[xblackbettyx]

OMG that is rediculously scary and horrid you had to go through all that because of a doctor's big, huge, rediculous mistake! I hope you sued the crap out of that doctor, that was a super careless mistake they made and they should be held responsible for it.

I'm always worried for surgery too and I haven't had any issues but I can see why you're stressed - I'd be a mess! I will definitely be praying for you girl!

[tazgirl31]

Xblack, I also no the feeling of eating bad food then feeling even worse after it's gone. I been doing that I ate like crap yesterday had pecan pie, carrot cake, it was good at the time but i was so sick n frustrated after I ate it! So today I have promised myself I'm not going to eat anything bad! I'm going to stick on track and do my best to not gain anymore weight back! I no I'm up now I can feel it, but my Tom has got me all blowed up to! U don't no how much u have helped me today, just getting up and reading ur post and to hear all the nice things u had to say about me , that is what I needed to hear, we all need to hear this! It is what keeps me going just knowing how others look at me, and see me as a inspiration n a strong person! So thank u so much to all u girls on here who have said such nice things to me! I read all ur posts and I no I been bad at replying to them but I'm going to b better and back to myself again soon! I can't let all this get the best of me and turn me into that sad, miserable, withdrawn girl again! I just want to say THANK YOU ALL for being here for me and being so understanding taz

[tazgirl31]

OMG that is rediculously scary and horrid you had to go through all that because of a doctor's big, huge, rediculous mistake! I hope you sued the crap out of that doctor, that was a super careless mistake they made and they should be held responsible for it.

I'm always worried for surgery too and I haven't had any issues but I can see why you're stressed - I'd be a mess! I will definitely be praying for you girl!

Yep it's a real nitemare! I wrote alot of poems to get myself thro it all, sounds strange but writing just helps me get all my feelings out! I did try to sue for my medical bills since they r over 100,000 dollars, the lawyer I had kept my case for 2 years until my time ran out, then said he couldn't help me cause these cases r so hard to fight, he said the hosp covered the doctors butt so well! I'm not sure how long u have to do a medical malpractice but was told 2 years! So I gave up on it! I worked at the hosp this happened at, was on their insurance but right in middle of all this they took my insurance away, they said I was not going to b able to work a year so if I wanted to keep my insurance I would need to pay cobra, which was like 600$ month! I could not afford that! So now every where I work they garnish me 50% of my check to pay on hosp bills! I will owe them for life! When they should have paid for it all, I never ask for all this to happen! Surgeries r scary u never really no what will happen when ur put out! I no they changed my life from all this, it's been one horrible nitemare one I don't think I can ever overcome! Taz

[waiting2xhale]

Taz, it sounds like you have really been through a nightmare. Continue to stay strong and try to eat as healthy as possible since you can't exercise the way you would like. Hopefully, your pending surgery will go well.

[Mary-Mary]

Wow Taz you have been through many things no wonder you are so scared I will for sure keep you in my prayers so that everything goes well on your surgery and all of us are here to listen and give you some support and I am happy that you are still going to keep with the healthy eating....so how is the pain? I know you were saying that your stomach hurt, did it get better?
I am thinking about you all the time be positive and take care!

[tazgirl31]

Taz, it sounds like you have really been through a nightmare. Continue to stay strong and try to eat as healthy as possible since you can't exercise the way you would like. Hopefully, your pending surgery will go well.

Hey there I haven't seen u around in a while! I'm happy to hear from u yes it's been a real nitemare for me, it's just something u would always hear about but never thought YOU would b the one going through it! I'm proud of myself today cause I haven't ate any thing bad, and I have started taking lots of vitamins, I'm taking prenatal, vitamin c, b12 ! Going to make sure I am healthy enough to go thro all this and heal up fast!! Taz

[tazgirl31]

Wow Taz you have been through many things no wonder you are so scared I will for sure keep you in my prayers so that everything goes well on your surgery and all of us are here to listen and give you some support and I am happy that you are still going to keep with the healthy eating....so how is the pain? I know you were saying that your stomach hurt, did it get better?
I am thinking about you all the time be positive and take care!

Hey Mary hope everything is going well for u the pain is still pretty bad in my stomach, especially when I get up from a chair, or bend over , or cough! But when the surgeon pushed everything back into place some of the pain left, so I was happy about that! I'm not taking any pain meds cause the surgeon agreed withme that it would only make things worse , the pain meds would constipate me then would b worse for the hernia! So I'm handling it all ok tho! Just been taking it easy!I miss exercising so much, but I'm for sure trying to stay away from bad foods now, cause like xblack said they Taste good for a few mins but then I feel miserable after I eat them, plus I don't want to b huge by the time I have surgery n recover from it!! So u gotta keep me in line ok?! I got me some sugar free jello, and cool whip, and some choclate carb smart ice cream for when I need choclate ! It's pretty good! I'm really hoping my surgeon will call me this week and say let's get it done, cause the longer I wait the scared'er I get! The day I have surgery soon as I get out and am alert lol I will call u that way u can let everyone no here I'm alive hehe!! That's my happiest moment when I hear the nurse say my name, just knowing I'm alive still!! And my dr is sooo good to me after surgery he makes sure I'm in no pain at all! He just knows me so well, and knows just what to give me!!! That's why I'm trying to wait for him!!!! Taz

[slmoreno5803]

Hey All,

Taz - keep hanging in there you will be back on track and better before you know it.The Big Man has to much for you to do to keep you down for long. I am still praying for you everyday.

I have the atkins book too. I have to do something different. My family is so used to me cooking huge fattening meals full of pasta and sauces and all the fixings that when I even suggest that we have a small dinner they all become barbaric and act like they are going to waste away. My hubby and three strapping teenage boys will not stand for salad for dinner. I have been trying to set boundaries for my self like not snacking and tasting while I cook but I love these foods too. I have been doing my 30 min workout twice a day and that feels great but the weekends are different. My hubby feels that he needs to coach me and I cant stand it. The workout is pretty high paced and for him to sit behind me in his recliner all 300 lbs and eat a bowl of cereal yelling your not doing it right is just making me mad. I will never do it with him here again. My boys are all behind me though they want to start doing the taebo with me. It is 45 min and pretty intense but if they are there with me I think that I can do it every am and be ok. I am on my way to church. I will talk later. have a great day all

[tazgirl31]

Hey All,

Taz - keep hanging in there you will be back on track and better before you know it.The Big Man has to much for you to do to keep you down for long. I am still praying for you everyday.

I have the atkins book too. I have to do something different. My family is so used to me cooking huge fattening meals full of pasta and sauces and all the fixings that when I even suggest that we have a small dinner they all become barbaric and act like they are going to waste away. My hubby and three strapping teenage boys will not stand for salad for dinner. I have been trying to set boundaries for my self like not snacking and tasting while I cook but I love these foods too. I have been doing my 30 min workout twice a day and that feels great but the weekends are different. My hubby feels that he needs to coach me and I cant stand it. The workout is pretty high paced and for him to sit behind me in his recliner all 300 lbs and eat a bowl of cereal yelling your not doing it right is just making me mad. I will never do it with him here again. My boys are all behind me though they want to start doing the taebo with me. It is 45 min and pretty intense but if they are there with me I think that I can do it every am and be ok. I am on my way to church. I will talk later. have a great day all

Thanx girl! Yea i always say god has plans for me cause he's brought me thro 3 times! I am a cancer survivor, lost my right eye when I was 2 1/2 yrs old, then he saved me thro all my surgerys then saved me once again last year when three rounds of bullets went thro my house and barely missed my head! So I'm staying strong as I can! Today I'm hurting very bad to the point I may end up in hosp tonight! It's hard to even breathe right now girl I'm proud of u for making the right choices, even tho u don't have much support from ur hubby! I no it's so frustrating to try to work out and have someone judging u, when it's quite obvious he doesn't have a clue how to do it any better as he's never done it, tell him if he wants to tell u how it's done to get up and show u, let's see how easy it is for him arrrr men can b such a pain sometimes lol! Just ignore it and like u said wait until he's gone to exercise! That would b cool to workout with ur boys! That's great!!! As for low carb meals if they want pasta make wheat pasta it's actually really good! U can make all kinds of yummy low carb meals and they won't even see that much of a difference! If they want mashed potatoes, fix u some mashed cauliflower, it's so yummy and taste like mashed tators add some butter n salt!! Or have a baked sweet potato! These are just some of the things I eat! My hubby is all about carbs, he loves big meals to, but I just make myself things that will satisfy me and it's not tempting to want his stuff!!! Goood luck girl just hang in there it does get easier and once u start making even bigger progress and ur hubby sees all the changes he may just want to join u ur setting a good example for ur entire family trust me taz