Mscas...OMG that sounds SOOO good!!! I'm gonna try that sometime soon!!!
I'm so ready to go home! I'm STARVING!!! Gonna walk when we get home, but I wanna grab something to eat first! I know we have some banana's and apples at home...so that's probably what I'll go for.
Hope everyone is doing well!
Talk to you later!!



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started dieting
I went to the doc after that and weighed in 2lbs lighter...was hoping for at least 3 with all the walking I did this week but I am happy with any loss. Tomorrow I have a dinner date with some friends that have mentioned going out to the bar after. I havent seen this group of gal pals since September also....everyone lives so dang far away! I am excited to see them, but not so much on the bar part. I know I can control myself at dinner and the bar but now that I have made all these changes I guess I would rather do something more active - unless we go somewhere where there is dancing
2nd mini goal: 199 (One-derland!) 1lb to go!








In particular last year. I found this forum last year when I first got on phen. I never posted but always read. I did good the first few months and then I'm not sure what happened. I got off track and then before I knew it one day led to 2, 3...weeks, months, etc. I would come on here and read and everyone would be doing so great and so motivated. I would be happy for people but then be like, wth is wrong with me? Why can't I get started again? Why can't I get motivated? I wish I had the magic answer for you but I don't. To be honest I'm not sure what exactly got me going this last time. There were a few things that happened that I can think of but no big "aha moment". For me I guess I had to get to the point of being so disgusted by myself that I could finally make changes. I know that sounds bad and unhealthy but for me it was true. There is a saying that I have always liked that fit in my case. "When the pain of not changing becomes worse than the pain of changing, we will change". Change is hard for all of us. But for me that saying is so true. It was hurting me more not to change than to start making the necessary changes. I was so tired of being disappointed in myself and being miserable. Once I started eating right and losing a bit I felt so good. I felt proud of myself. After awhile of eating well I knew I had to start exercising if it was going to be a real change that was long lasting. So I started that. I felt so good about myself every time I would exercise and I felt so much better physically as well. Once I started posting here it made an even bigger difference for me. I felt like if I came on here and said I was going to the Y later that I had to do it otherwise I would have to come on here and tell you guys. It made me accountable. I agree with what shoe said about finding something you like. I too tried the shred and I just plain don't like it? Idk why for sure. I just could never get into more than a few days. I have found a different dvd I like that is strength training and I am glad because I can have a hard time getting into dvd. I also like to walk. I haven't been walking outside but have been using the treadmill. I have a pattern of self sabotage. I could write a whole book on that but I'll spare you guys lol. Maybe you should ask yourself if you sabotage yourself. I know for me in the past deep down I didn't think I deserved to be happy. I also wasn't used to being successful. When thing started going too well or Istarted feeling good about myself I would find a way to sabotage and ruin it. This was not done consciously of course. It took me years of really looking deep into myself to discover and then change my self defeating, unhealthy patterns. Thankfully I have managed to change those things. Of course I still have issues lol. I'm sure I always will. No one is perfect and old habits die hard. But I am able to identify things much quicker now before things get too out of hand and cause too much damage. No more creating chaos and drama in my life. Life is too short and I want and deserve to be happy. So do you!
I just really felt I needed to be honest with myself (and you guys). I can't stay in denial or rationalize things because it will get me nowhere...except back to where I was.
woo hoooo
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