[countryasadirtroad]

Ok... since I started my life style change (eating healthy, working out, phen, this site, etc) a few months ago I have become obsessed. I weigh atleast 3x/day... I still keep expecting the scale to read back in the 190's or 200's b'c that's what I saw for so long. I'm having a hard time with the reality of my wieght loss. I haven't been under 180 lbs (except to get to 175lbs for like a whole week or two last year) and I'm actually kinda afraid to go past that mark. I haven't quite figured out exactly why yet... maybe I'm just so accustomed to being this size that I'm afraid to get my hopes up? I think about the "process" (as I have come to call all the components that make up my life style change) constantly. I want to be able to NOT talk about my weight loss or my process to anyone b'c I'd really like to see when people are able to tell I've lost without me telling them, but I stay so daggum excited I can't shut my dang mouth. I know people are tired of hearing about my weight loss b'c I talk about it so much... but I JUST CAN'T STOP. It's like f*cking crack or something. I LOVE trying on things I haven't worn in a while to see how they fit now... I'll try on the same thing once every week or two just to check. (and am happy to say I've found a thing or two that was too small before and now fits)
Anyone else do these kinds of things?? I don't see anything wrong with it per say, but it seems a little much, ya know?? I guess I just wanna know if I'm normal (or as normal as I can be expected to get anyways). You cheech'in what I'm chong'in??

[onefatbaby]

Wow! It is like you just crawled inside my head! I have the same feelings about weightloss! I am a bit frightened about attention. I have only told family and my close friends. Other people that have noticed I just only said I have been working out a bit. It is not that I am ashamed it is I just do not want the attention. It makes me acknowledge that I was so fat before and everyone really noticed it! I know this sounds a bit crazy huh? I also kinda feel that if everyone knows I will stop losing and I do not want to jinx it. We all know that there are sabatoging people out there, especially ones that want you to stay fat...... I do love trying on my old skinny clothes at home but I have not bought any new clothes yet, I still feel like I have the secret under all my baggy stuff. I do not think your crazy at all Either that or we both are! LOL

[whathappened2me]

First-I personally never get tired of hearing about your's or anybody else's weight loss. So get that out of you mind. If I don't hear it. I'll think I am crazy.

Second-I am obsessed to. And I just decided that I am okay being an obsessive nut about my weight loss. I could be trippin of some non value added Bull sh*t. If we do not speak or talk about our goals and dreams how will they ever come to fruition. I am ready to buy a countdown teeshirt. Just like a scoreboard. I'll rock it to the gym, to grocery store, to church, everywhere.

Third-I am scared to. You read my post last night. I just rolled out. But, on the drive home I was like d*mn it. When I lose it I will I maintain it? Will I change on the inside? When I have kids will I get fat again? Will get get depressed and get fat again? Blah,Blah, Blah. I was wiggin the eff out. Then today at work I was thinking about my weight loss, goals, and fears. I just said eff it. (I bet you didn't know I got paid to plan my weight loss endeavors at my desk) I got so comfortable being the fat and fluffy. That now I am scared of my own success. WTF!!! I have no idea when I became complacent and scared of my own inner strength. I am kinda pi**ed at myself for that. So please know my friend you are not alone. I am crack crazy just like ya.

[lovemyboys]

I dont talk about it much...but of course all I talk to is a 4 year old and a 1 year old most days. However I was that way about the scale for a little while, and I did try crap on all the time, and it was like I could not believe that some things fit again. I would try them on again just to make sure.. like I was in a dream.

Now I obesses about shopping for new things. ALOT! I mean ALOT!
In the back of my mind I think I should wait till I drop some more LBS, but I cant! I was so tired of Tshirts and sweat pants for so long. I just want to look put together again..Like I use to.
Also trying to increase the old wardrobe before the big D, so the bills on him.
you cheech'in what I'm chong'in??

[lovemyboys]

Originally Posted by whathappened2me

First-I personally never get tired of hearing about your's or anybody else's weight loss. So get that out of you mind. If I don't hear it. I'll think I am crazy.

Second-I am obsessed to. And I just decided that I am okay being an obsessive nut about my weight loss. I could be trippin of some non value added Bull sh*t. If we do not speak or talk about our goals and dreams how will they ever come to fruition. I am ready to buy a countdown teeshirt. Just like a scoreboard. I'll rock it to the gym, to grocery store, to church, everywhere.

Third-I am scared to. You read my post last night. I just rolled out. But, on the drive home I was like d*mn it. When I lose it I will I maintain it? Will I change on the inside? When I have kids will I get fat again? Will get get depressed and get fat again? Blah,Blah, Blah. I was wiggin the eff out. Then today at work I was thinking about my weight loss, goals, and fears. I just said eff it. (I bet you didn't know I got paid to plan my weight loss endeavors at my desk) I got so comfortable being the fat and fluffy. That now I am scared of my own success. WTF!!! I have no idea when I became complacent and scared of my own inner strength. I am kinda pi**ed at myself for that. So please know my friend you are not alone. I am crack crazy just like ya.

whathappen...You are to cute! and I love your way of thinking and the confidence you have I kown you will succeed in whatever you do, and at the same time be strong support to us all here!!!! YOU ROCK BABYGIRL!!!

[LoSingWeightin08]

Obsessed is one way of putting it lol. I dont want to put this weight back on again..thats my main fear. I dont want to go back over 200lbs...and I dont want to just quit..I've been sort of depressed today b/c I've been yo-yoing with the scale for like 2weeks I think going between 193-197. I'm thinking it might be muscle that I'm gaining b/c I've been lifting weights more and doing more cardio..I'm praying its muscle! But yea. I think the only way I'm going to stay committed and focused is if I "obsess".

[whathappened2me]

Originally Posted by lovemyboys

whathappen...You are to cute! and I love your way of thinking and the confidence you have I kown you will succeed in whatever you do, and at the same time be strong support to us all here!!!! YOU ROCK BABYGIRL!!!

I am sincerely humbled by your compliment. I think you are such a beautiful and classy lady. Definitely on my Shero list. You strap your boots on walk through all of that sh*t with one of whose name we do not speak, but you do it with such grace and style. And you still make time to come here and post the most real, down to earth, and funny comments that I have read. And you have good taste in men, I love Tobey Keith and was jealous when you went to see him in concert. I seen him live in concert for the troops and when sang "Courtesy of the Red, White, & Blue", girl, I almost past out. How sexy can a man be!!!!

[ses2682]

My biggest fear about being thinner is I worry my bf will noticeably treat me differently and I am afraid it will really hurt my feelings. Plus, I am afraid when it is my time to get off of Phen if I will have the same will power now to say no to bad foods.
I also weigh myself constantly afraid that one day I'll get onto the scale and gain tons of weight and this all was a big trick! I dont know how to actually feel about going shopping with a body that fits into more types of clothing.. I have been so limited for so long...it will definitely be interesting.

[Vixena99]

Girl I am in the same boat as you! I try not to weigh myself for 3 days......those 3 days are murder! I too am obsessed, but honestly I think thats a good thing because for the first time in a long time I am excited about myself! I am so proud of myself and everyone else on here when we drop even a few pounds.....it all adds up in the end. One day we will all look back on our "fat" pictures and keep that obsessive pride in our hearts.

[Nursy Lori]

I can understand completely where y'all are coming from. I have been over 200 pounds for at least the last 12 years or more and sometimes I wake up and it's like I have to weight myself because I still have a hard time believing that I'm in the 100's. I still don't know how to accept compliments from people at times because I'm not used to receiving them. I have that same fear that I will fail one day and balloon back up to 200+ pounds again. I hope not, but it's always in the back of my mind. I love food way too much and I know that I probably always will. It will be a constant battle for me until the day that I die to keep my weight at a healthy number.

[CandaceG]

Hi there! First let me say YOUR DOING AWESOME! Who cares if you tell people about it. You have the right to tell people about it, after all you earned it! I was the same way when I first started, then a couple months later I just kept quiet and kept watching the scale go down. I am the same way about my old weight, I keep expecting it to be 20 pounds more lol but hey its normal. And as far as trying on your smaller clothes, I don't think anyone can honestly say they don't do that! So CONGRATS and keep up the good work

[insearchofme]

This past week I have totally allowed myself to become complacent and today it is reflected on the scale. It took me two years to get to Onderland, and two days to leave it. I am so pissed at myself right now.

I have not journaled in a long time, and I think that is part of my downfall. I need to become focused or even obsessed if I really want to succeed at this.

With my weight gain being fairly recent, I am struggling to understand what the hell I am afraid of. I understand how someone who has been overweight the majority of their lives would subconsciously cling to their weight, but that is not my case and it leaves me at baffled at my MANY failed attempts to regain my normal weight.

I have to admit, in my thinner days, I have been quick to pass judgement on others and I have often time wondered why overweight people did not just s.uck it up and just do the work it took to become healthier. I know that admitting this may cause some of you to think less of me, but this is how I felt, and I now realize that there is more to battling weight than eating well and working out. Perhaps this is my "day in the life." Whatever the case, this is as I have said many times over the single hardest thing I have ever had to do.

Today I am struggling to get back on track but those old familiar feelings of hopelessness are once again at the forefront of my mind.