
Haven't been around..and..
I have not been on my diet all week!


I am so sad and stressed out lately. I think it starts with being stressed which makes me sad...and this week I just haven't cared. Deep down inside I know I care though. I am getting dressed this morning and can tell I have put on weight. I am actually embarrassed by it because the people at work notice me losing it so much that I know they will be able to tell that I am starting to put it back on. I cheated all weekend...than had Monday off...and cheated...than Tuesday was my wedding anniversary so I took the day off for that and we spent the day in a cabin on the lake and on a boat. It was a great day, but with lots of food. It didn't stop there though...Wednesday I had a little left over cake from my anniversary that my Mom bought us. Yesterday...I snacked a lot and than had ice cream and the rest of the cake...WTF???



Today....I still don't feel like I care and I am afraid I will make bad choices. My weigh in is tomorrow...and a part of me wants to skip it...but, I have never skipped a weigh in and I guess I need to face the facts and see how much damage I have done. I am just so stressed with life right now...anybody else really hurting because of all the increases in gas and food??? It's hitting us so hard right now. Anyway, I think I have lost my motivation??? I NEED to snap out of this or my weight will go back on SO fast...I can tell it already is in just 1 week. I was so close to getting under 200 pounds too...which was my HUGE 1st goal. UGH! Ok....I am done being so negative, I am sorry. Also, sorry I have not been around lately...I have just been kinda distant with everybody and everything. This to shall pass....I hope!
Thanks to whoever got through this!
**Jessica**
SW (3/21/08) : 228
1st Month: -15.6
2nd Month: -4
5/31/08: 205.6
6/7/08: 205.6
6/14/08: 207...PMS, stress, no diet, and no exercise.

6/21/08: 203
"Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending."