[coco-pebbles-aholic]

I am gonna unload all my medical problems right here becaz I am sick of being sick.Noone knows what to say to me nor do I know what I want to hear.I believe I just want to be normal again.Noone to feel sorry for me but just if u have info on this stuff share with me so I can find some solutions.

I have never been a sickly person.No more then ur average cold or flu & once in awhile hives when stress got to the better of me.Then weird stuff began to happen & when I finally go in & all test r given I find out my thyroid is in total strangeness!Now I go on meds hopefully Monday or Tuesday for that.Now the scarey part is I was diagonsed with Multiple Sclerosis & Myelopathy.At age 36 my body is in a downhill spiral of deterorating on me.My once strong body is lacking strength & control to even move around furniture.I am tired of being weak,in pain,& extreme fatigue.

Then I have this wonderful man in my life who has assured me even if I am pushed to the alter in a wheelchair he is spending his life with me.My daughters r 13 & 16 so he will pick up the slack in raising them & providing for us.I feel guilty for putting so much on him.I am currently in bankruptcy & finacially he has taken over my bills for me.In my mind I think how much more do I put on him before he breaks or leaves.He has no children of his own y would anyone take on mine?Y would he want a sick woman who has been widowed then divorced in bankruptcy with 2 bad-***** girls ??I am short & fat then here he is tall,dark ,& extremely handsome.If I ever forget there always seems to be a woman around (strangers to us at that)to remind me how did I get him.(people can be soo rude)

I don't say GOD y me?Basically for all my past wrongs I usually think y not me.But I wonder & talk to GOD often Y do I deserve to have so many good people in my life to help bear my burden?

Anyways I just had to spill my guts & get it all off my shoulders.MAybe someone has an answer I am looking for that I do not even know the question to just yet.I am NOT looking for sympathy.Just someone to hear me that can explain to me y r my emotions in turmoil with wanting help yet refusing it.Of course I cannot take phentermine any longer but do I have to leave the message boards?I enjoy the friendships I have made here.

Ok I am in the cry -me-a -river stage at this point!But I feel a lil better getting it off my chest.............

[babydoll2]

No, don't leave the message boards. There are other people on here who have stop Phen for one reason or another. Stay strong and we're here when you need us. I will remember you in prayer.

Rhonda

[Dawndownunder.]

Absolutly do not leave the message boards. You have people here who care about you.
Im sorry you are feeling down. Have you thought about finding an MS suport group so you can talk to people who know what you are going through.

[jenfri76]

Do not leave. This is a place that you can come for comfort. I will keep you in my prayers.

[2teensNabean]

No, do not leave us!!! Someone told me we are not only a weightloss board but we are also here for support and whatever else we can think of. I dont know what I would do without this board here and all the sweet, kind, very caring people here that I call friends. Please dont leave, you are part of this wonderful group of people here and you have given great support here and have become here a person we can learn from.

I'm so sorry you are going through with the different things going wrong. I just hope that the doctors can control it with meds and things will start turning around for you. Now why do you think your man is with you, hmmmm. Because your a loving, sweet, beautiful person inside and outside who deserves him. Believe it or not looks aren't everything. You have something special that keeps him around. So saying how a tall, dark , handsome man could want you, because you deserve him and he deserves you. So let him help you and take some of the burden off of you. If he didn't want to do it he would of left awhile ago, right?? Hang in there and I will keep you in my prayers.

Michelle

[MustangSally]

Honey, never give up...my grandfather...has had MS since he was in his late 30's...I am not saying it has been easy all the time...and really he missed out on all the newer advances they have made over the years...but, he just turned 80. And he has only been in a wheel chair for about the last 3 years. I know everyone is different...but don't push the people who love you away...they love you...You know that if the tables were turned you would still want to be with him...And you are not allowed to leave the boards...so just keep on typing!!!!

[DancingStarr]

Hey Coco! As you know I can totally sympathize with being tired of feeling bad all the time. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers.
PM me anytime if you need to talk! By the way, I stopped taking Phentermine a long time ago, and there is nothing that says you have to still be taking it to be here!
Hope you get to feeling better!!! ((HUGS))

[missus]

Hey Coco, what they said, especially Mustang.

I will be praying for a miracle for you girl. And try to be as positive as you can. I read that being positive is half the battle sometimes.

Sounds like God has given you some good stuff already: your fiancee and your beautiful children.

We have two people in our family with MS, and they have done very well. If you want to talk, pm me, we can email or whatever.

Hugs

Hoping you feel better sweetie

Missus

[coco-pebbles-aholic]

Seems like anytime I feel alone & lost u gals can always make me feel on top of the world again.After seeing all the devastation after hurricane Katrina I realize how far the good LORD has brought me & my family & how much further I am destined.I am NOT gonna let a little pain stop me from living anymore & no longer will I allow myself to feel sorry for myself for more then 10 min a day.I am gonna time it.Seriously 10 minutes!!!!I will cry & lash out then it has to be over so I can continue on my journey with life.

If I am offered help I am accepting it & as well as asking for it.Pride is too painful!Yesterday I placed my order at work I thought I will never be able to do all the product I ordered especially without hurting.Then I thought someone is gonna help me,so I wrote my manager a note asking him to find me someone to help me out on Wednesday even if frm another store becaz I need it or he can volunteer .He called this morning saying he got me some help & never let a day go past that if I need assistance that I don't ask for it becaz only I know what I can & cannot do.wow,they get it I thought after we spoke.

Everyday I meet people with time limits on their life & I am not 1 of them .I am only limited in what I can do occassionally.I can do it.Sometimes when u open ur eyes u can find someone else worse off & I see that in Missisppi & La. Thank GOD we were spared but I feel for these people.....

[2teensNabean]

God bless you Coco!!! I already replied to your post but I just read what you wrote and I had to respond again.

You know we can learn by you, I read that last paragraph and it gave me chills. Its so true! We can do it, whether its MS or other issues that we all have to deal with. There is many people who deal with alot more and I do thank god for what I do have. We need to think of the positive instead of the negative. Hang in there sweetie and you know you always have us here. You have lotsa support.

Michelle

[proudmamaa]

Go get'um girl!

[missus]

Hey Coco, thought about you today, thought I would give you a shoutout. Hope you see this and pray that you are in good spirits.

Hugs girl

Missus

[coco-pebbles-aholic]

I am doing pretty good& want to thank everyone for all their support.It's amazing how much better life is when u quit feeling sorry for yourself.I am just learning to live with the MS.

As well as the job finally hired me a helper.I went to the boss & requested a new hire to assist me.There is a difference between self-pity & admitting ur limits.Now if the job will finally admit no matter how healthy u look noone knows what is going on with ur body.

Now to get my energy levels up.I need energy.with no phen it is difficult all I wanna do is sleep.I have no caffeine,no phen,no nothing.IT IS DIFFICULT!My MS dr. said there r some things he is gonna prescribe to assist in my energy level & weight-loss that won't interfere with other meds so I go in another week.Watch it be phen...

Thanks everyone.We all need all the prayers we can get!!!!

[missus]

yep, it probably will be the phen, but don't fret, there are other alternatives sweetie. You are sounding chiper and in good spirits, that's great. I've been meaning to ask you. Remember we talked about that movie called smoke signals. I saw it about 5 years ago, wondering where I can get a copy. My little one is 1/4 cherokee and 1/4 choctaw, and I want him to see it. Anyhow, glad you're feeling better mentally and spiritually.

Hug your baby for me, tell her she is special.

Missus