not phen related- I'm having a panic attack!!! - Phentermine.com

lil_kydarlin · March 28th, 2003, 08:17 AM

Sorry guys! Someone has to talk me down. Does anyone remember when I was trying to decide if I wanted to send the Valentine's card to the guy in Chicago? The one I'm crazy about, the best-uh, you know- I ever had? He called me this morning and said "what would you say if I told you I'm moving back down there?" !!! I didn't say anything-ME, SPEECHLESS (?). I'm excited, but my chest started to tighten up - this really could happen. Why am I so scared? Why can't I ever just let myself be happy? I worry about what "could" happen, and in most cases ruin it- before it has a chance.

mommy of twins · March 28th, 2003, 08:22 AM

calm down!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Take it one day at a time!

Mer

Keew · March 28th, 2003, 08:24 AM

I say good. Let him move back. He's not moving in with you, so you have nothing to worry about.

lil_kydarlin · March 28th, 2003, 08:29 AM

ummmmmm, maybe he is Keew

, while he looks for a place of his own (unless we work out and then....who knows)

lil_kydarlin · March 28th, 2003, 08:32 AM

LOL- thanks Mer. By the way, how are you and your guy doing? The one that you met at the club?

BigD · March 28th, 2003, 09:05 AM

Hey girly! Breath!!! Its all going to be ok!!!

Do what you think is right/best for you!

lil_kydarlin · March 31st, 2003, 07:52 AM

OHHHHHHH!!!!! He's coming in on Wednesday!!!!!! OHHHH! Here I go again! breathe....breathe...breathe.....

lil_kydarlin · March 31st, 2003, 07:55 AM

And can I just add - I have a "LOVELY" zit next to my nose! Great, haven't seen him in 6 months and he's gonna see me like this!!!!

mommy of twins · March 31st, 2003, 09:35 AM

lol!!! Im sure it will be fine!!

Im not seeing that guy anymore.

In fact.. I know exactly how you feel.

A long while ago I posted about a hott guy.. named Jesse. Hes the one who told me to lose some weight if I wanted a relationship with him long term (not in those words, but basically). WELLLLLLLL....... He went back into rehab because he relapsed. This was about 3 months ago. I got a call from him a month ago and he told me that he was sorry about everything and when he gets back to SA he wants us to be together and get married blah blah blah... and I didnt really think too much of it. Hes been in and out of rehab for 4 years now trying to take his life back. He explained how greatful he was to have me as a friend and how much I mean to him and he wants me & the girls to be a permanent part of his family.

WELL I got a call Friday and hes back. I went to go pick him up from his grandmas house. I spent the entire weekend with him & my girls. He has changed so much. Ohhh yeah BTW, when he saw me, his jaw dropped. And he is sexy as always. Sizzling!!! Anyway, His mom is pretty cool and we went to see her Sunday night. He & his mom confronted me asking me & the girls to move in with them. He wants me to help him stay clean.. just by being there.

Sooo theres my predicament. I would be moving into Mexico basically... (the westside)... where Ill be the ONLY whitie.

A 30 minute commute (1 hour in traffic) to work. I have lived on this side of town since I was 5. Sooo,... this will be exciting. Seems like everything is moving so fast. You know, since we're already planning when were having "our" first child and all.. lol.. and Im supposed to be moving in with him after we get back from dallas on Sunday.. and his mom already calls me "daughter"... lol..

Girl... I know how you feel. RELAX!

lil_kydarlin · March 31st, 2003, 09:54 AM

wow! Mer! and I'm not even the one moving! Aren't you scared? I just don't want to be disappointed. It's been a LONG time since I let anybody that close to me. My exhusband tore me a new one. Also, before I knew he was coming back, my friend tricked me into meeting this guy and... I like him- so how do I explain after 2 dates with him, that this guy is moving in with me? And my parents (who live very close by) will have a stroke when they find out I'm letting him move in! I think that's what bothers me the most. They will call me a bad mother for doing this in front of my son and not being married. I want to be happy but I feel like the world's against me.

Anybody have any suggestions on how to get rid of the zit- actually I picked at it (I know, I know)and it's more of a scab now (really pretty, huh?)

mommy of twins · March 31st, 2003, 09:58 AM

Well, how well do you know this guy?? I usually have to know someone pretty well before I let them live in the same dwelling as my children. After all, they are number 1. (and 2)...

Be careful.

As far as the zit goes... Cant help ya. When you find out what works, lemme know

lil_kydarlin · March 31st, 2003, 10:06 AM

ummmmm, Mer, I knew him 2 wks....before he went back tp Chicago and then we talked on the phone a lot for a couple of months and then lost contact for a month and then I sent the Valentine's card and we've been talking on the phone ever since. Technically, we are going to be "living together" he's just gonna stay with me until he gets a job and finds his own place. We aren't making a lifetime commitment or anything, but it's still scary.

mommy of twins · March 31st, 2003, 10:15 AM

yeah a little scary since you don tknow if hes a child molestor or a serial killer!!!

Girl at leat do a background check on him!!! You never know these days.

lil_kydarlin · March 31st, 2003, 10:24 AM

I've actually already thought of that. My brother in law is in the law enforcement and I told him that. I told him months ago that I was going to do a background check on him and asked if there was anything I should know. He told me of a few silly things- like when he was a juvy he stole some lumber to make a skate board ramp.... and he was ok with it. My brother in law didn't find anything on him. And he was very good with my son, he really liked him. I do take that part- totally seriously. He's not into drugs and only drinks socially- like me.

Crystal · March 31st, 2003, 10:29 AM

Put toothpaste (NOT the gel type) on your little problem and leave it on overnight.

March 28th, 2003, 08:24 AM	#3 (permalink)
Keew Diamond Phenster Join Date: Sep 2002 Location: Mass. Posts: 2,523 Lost Weight: 0lbs Goal Weight: 150	I say good. Let him move back. He's not moving in with you, so you have nothing to worry about. ******************************* "If your mind wasn't so narrow, your waist would be" -Dr.Atkins ***************************** SW 387 CW 230 GW 175 LOW CARB FOR LIFE!!**

March 28th, 2003, 09:05 AM	#6 (permalink)
BigD Leg Humper in Denial Join Date: Feb 2003 Posts: 1,606 Lost Weight: 0lbs Current Weight: too much	Hey girly! Breath!!! Its all going to be ok!!! Do what you think is right/best for you! God Bless Our Troops "Life without goals is like golf without holes" My best advise to anyone seeking to reach any goal: Keep on keeping on, and NEVER GIVE UP!

March 31st, 2003, 10:29 AM	#15 (permalink)
Crystal Platinum Phenster Join Date: Mar 2002 Location: Ohio Posts: 1,138 Lost Weight: 82 pounds!! Current Weight: 260 (Beginning weight) 178 (CW) Goal Weight: 150	Put toothpaste (NOT the gel type) on your little problem and leave it on overnight. SW 260 CW 178 82 POUNDS GONE!!!

March 28th, 2003, 08:17 AM	#1 (permalink)
lil_kydarlin Silver Phenster Join Date: Jan 2003 Location: Kentucky Posts: 482 Lost Weight: 0lbs Current Weight: 150 Goal Weight: 120	Sorry guys! Someone has to talk me down. Does anyone remember when I was trying to decide if I wanted to send the Valentine's card to the guy in Chicago? The one I'm crazy about, the best-uh, you know- I ever had? He called me this morning and said "what would you say if I told you I'm moving back down there?" !!! I didn't say anything-ME, SPEECHLESS (?). I'm excited, but my chest started to tighten up - this really could happen. Why am I so scared? Why can't I ever just let myself be happy? I worry about what "could" happen, and in most cases ruin it- before it has a chance.

March 28th, 2003, 08:22 AM	#2 (permalink)
mommy of twins Diamond Phenster Join Date: Jul 2002 Location: San Antonio Texas Posts: 3,363 Lost Weight: 0lbs Goal Weight: 150	calm down!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Take it one day at a time! Mer

March 28th, 2003, 08:29 AM	#4 (permalink)
lil_kydarlin Silver Phenster Join Date: Jan 2003 Location: Kentucky Posts: 482 Lost Weight: 0lbs Current Weight: 150 Goal Weight: 120	ummmmmm, maybe he is Keew , while he looks for a place of his own (unless we work out and then....who knows)

March 28th, 2003, 08:32 AM	#5 (permalink)
lil_kydarlin Silver Phenster Join Date: Jan 2003 Location: Kentucky Posts: 482 Lost Weight: 0lbs Current Weight: 150 Goal Weight: 120	LOL- thanks Mer. By the way, how are you and your guy doing? The one that you met at the club?

March 31st, 2003, 07:52 AM	#7 (permalink)
lil_kydarlin Silver Phenster Join Date: Jan 2003 Location: Kentucky Posts: 482 Lost Weight: 0lbs Current Weight: 150 Goal Weight: 120	OHHHHHHH!!!!! He's coming in on Wednesday!!!!!! OHHHH! Here I go again! breathe....breathe...breathe.....

March 31st, 2003, 07:55 AM	#8 (permalink)
lil_kydarlin Silver Phenster Join Date: Jan 2003 Location: Kentucky Posts: 482 Lost Weight: 0lbs Current Weight: 150 Goal Weight: 120	And can I just add - I have a "LOVELY" zit next to my nose! Great, haven't seen him in 6 months and he's gonna see me like this!!!!

March 31st, 2003, 09:35 AM	#9 (permalink)
mommy of twins Diamond Phenster Join Date: Jul 2002 Location: San Antonio Texas Posts: 3,363 Lost Weight: 0lbs Goal Weight: 150	lol!!! Im sure it will be fine!! Im not seeing that guy anymore. In fact.. I know exactly how you feel. A long while ago I posted about a hott guy.. named Jesse. Hes the one who told me to lose some weight if I wanted a relationship with him long term (not in those words, but basically). WELLLLLLLL....... He went back into rehab because he relapsed. This was about 3 months ago. I got a call from him a month ago and he told me that he was sorry about everything and when he gets back to SA he wants us to be together and get married blah blah blah... and I didnt really think too much of it. Hes been in and out of rehab for 4 years now trying to take his life back. He explained how greatful he was to have me as a friend and how much I mean to him and he wants me & the girls to be a permanent part of his family. WELL I got a call Friday and hes back. I went to go pick him up from his grandmas house. I spent the entire weekend with him & my girls. He has changed so much. Ohhh yeah BTW, when he saw me, his jaw dropped. And he is sexy as always. Sizzling!!! Anyway, His mom is pretty cool and we went to see her Sunday night. He & his mom confronted me asking me & the girls to move in with them. He wants me to help him stay clean.. just by being there. Sooo theres my predicament. I would be moving into Mexico basically... (the westside)... where Ill be the ONLY whitie. A 30 minute commute (1 hour in traffic) to work. I have lived on this side of town since I was 5. Sooo,... this will be exciting. Seems like everything is moving so fast. You know, since we're already planning when were having "our" first child and all.. lol.. and Im supposed to be moving in with him after we get back from dallas on Sunday.. and his mom already calls me "daughter"... lol.. Girl... I know how you feel. RELAX!

March 31st, 2003, 09:54 AM	#10 (permalink)
lil_kydarlin Silver Phenster Join Date: Jan 2003 Location: Kentucky Posts: 482 Lost Weight: 0lbs Current Weight: 150 Goal Weight: 120	wow! Mer! and I'm not even the one moving! Aren't you scared? I just don't want to be disappointed. It's been a LONG time since I let anybody that close to me. My exhusband tore me a new one. Also, before I knew he was coming back, my friend tricked me into meeting this guy and... I like him- so how do I explain after 2 dates with him, that this guy is moving in with me? And my parents (who live very close by) will have a stroke when they find out I'm letting him move in! I think that's what bothers me the most. They will call me a bad mother for doing this in front of my son and not being married. I want to be happy but I feel like the world's against me. Anybody have any suggestions on how to get rid of the zit- actually I picked at it (I know, I know)and it's more of a scab now (really pretty, huh?)

March 31st, 2003, 09:58 AM	#11 (permalink)
mommy of twins Diamond Phenster Join Date: Jul 2002 Location: San Antonio Texas Posts: 3,363 Lost Weight: 0lbs Goal Weight: 150	Well, how well do you know this guy?? I usually have to know someone pretty well before I let them live in the same dwelling as my children. After all, they are number 1. (and 2)... Be careful. As far as the zit goes... Cant help ya. When you find out what works, lemme know

March 31st, 2003, 10:06 AM	#12 (permalink)
lil_kydarlin Silver Phenster Join Date: Jan 2003 Location: Kentucky Posts: 482 Lost Weight: 0lbs Current Weight: 150 Goal Weight: 120	ummmmm, Mer, I knew him 2 wks....before he went back tp Chicago and then we talked on the phone a lot for a couple of months and then lost contact for a month and then I sent the Valentine's card and we've been talking on the phone ever since. Technically, we are going to be "living together" he's just gonna stay with me until he gets a job and finds his own place. We aren't making a lifetime commitment or anything, but it's still scary.

March 31st, 2003, 10:15 AM	#13 (permalink)
mommy of twins Diamond Phenster Join Date: Jul 2002 Location: San Antonio Texas Posts: 3,363 Lost Weight: 0lbs Goal Weight: 150	yeah a little scary since you don tknow if hes a child molestor or a serial killer!!! Girl at leat do a background check on him!!! You never know these days.

March 31st, 2003, 10:24 AM	#14 (permalink)
lil_kydarlin Silver Phenster Join Date: Jan 2003 Location: Kentucky Posts: 482 Lost Weight: 0lbs Current Weight: 150 Goal Weight: 120	I've actually already thought of that. My brother in law is in the law enforcement and I told him that. I told him months ago that I was going to do a background check on him and asked if there was anything I should know. He told me of a few silly things- like when he was a juvy he stole some lumber to make a skate board ramp.... and he was ok with it. My brother in law didn't find anything on him. And he was very good with my son, he really liked him. I do take that part- totally seriously. He's not into drugs and only drinks socially- like me.