I'm sooooo mad at myself!!!!!

[lizard]

Okay...I've done perfectly ALL week. For the first time since I've been taking phen (1 month now) I finally saw a scale change. I've lost 5 pounds since Mon. Today though, I ate bad (after all week of doing sooooo good). I got on the scale and I've gained 6 pounds!!!! I'm heavier now than I was at the beginning. I only have 5 pills left and the DR. said she can't refill them unless I've lost 6 pounds. I'm now heavier than I was when I got the pills!!! How am I going to lose 6 pounds so that I can get my phen refilled. I also think that I need a higher dose (I'm at 30mg now). How hard is it to convince the DR. that you need a higher dose?? OR, if I don't lose 6 pounds, do you think she'll let me try the 37.5?? I'm so mad at myself...why do I do this? I get so excited when I lose that I feel that it's okay to eat bad...then I gain it right back. Any suggestions??

Thanks,
Melissa

[cherry]

you could always get them online if your dr refuses to give them to you. then you can get whatever dose you want! also weigh yourself only in the morning I'm always lighter then!

[lizard]

Cherry,
You're right, I weighed myself this morning and I am at 221...still 2 pounds up though. I don't know why I do good and then just go crazy.

Thanks,
Melissa

[KimberlyinKS]

So... you ate a lot of food and then weighed yourself? Um... how much do you think the weight of the food added into your body weight? Did you drink anything prior to weighing? That should also figure into how the scale registers.

[nal]

Liz - these are longstanding, deeply engrained habits we're fighting. They are like "demons" in a way - they don't want to give up!! I have done the same thing you did so many times. Don't beat yourself up. Explain to the doctor what you did, and that you are really trying hard to break old bad habits. The phen helps, but it doesn't do all the work.