[tinabean]

This is the first time in a very long time that I can say I am not happy!- With my weight that is.

After vacation and family parties this past two months has been so darn hard for me.
I new I had gained weight but- Ok I will admit it- 8 lbs.!!

I was so sick when I got on the scale yesterday. I hadn't weighed myself in about 2 weeks because I knew. But just didn't think it was that much.

My husband says don't beat myself up over it but I just didn't think what I was doing I guess.

I have been weaning myself off the phen for the past week. I have been taking 1/2 a tab once a day. Then 1/4 until gone. I have decided that I can not depend on the phen. It has been a wonderful tool for me but I do believe it's time is up.

I know you reach a point that your body gets used to the phen. and you just stop.
I'm fine with stopping I just don't want to gain.

I'm stuck in **** a "funk" right now. I'm really trying to get back. Since the kids are back in school I am hoping that my exercise routine will get back on track.

Wish me luck please. I've come so far on this journey I can't and I won't give up now.
But right now the light at the end of the tunnel seems so far away.

Thanks for letting me purge my thoughts.

Tina

[waiymee]

Best wishes! You'll be fine. Just remember, One day at a time..there was weight loss before phen and there will be after

[tifftiff8]

Ok I am hoping that when you read this you will feel a little better and even more determined!!! You can not lose focus, site or faint before the race is over. YOU have the ability to not allow things including this weight gain knock you out of the race. Keep your head lifted and KNOW that YOU control your destiny. I know this may seem like a lot of rhetoric but trust me....speak positive things into your life and self! It really does wonders. When it is all said and done, you must believe in yourself even if no one else does!!! Bottom line...if you don't do it...who will do it for you? I know it all ****s and you feel a little discouraged but hey we all live and learn. I bet when another family party or vacation comes around you will begin to pay better attention to what you are doing/eating and control yourself. That is all. So today is a new day....each day is filled with new beginnings and YOU get to choose how you will live it and spend it. So make a decision that "Today I woke up (alot of people didn't) and I AM going to do my exercise, eat well and not let yesterday or what I did or didn't do, steal or take away my joy today!! I am strong, I am able, I am beautiful, I am intelligent, I am a good person, I am healthy, I am nuturing, I am caring and I KNOW that I can dust myself off and get back on track!!"

Have a wonderful day and know that you have some people out here praying for you, cheering you on and supporting you!!!!!!

Today is the day!!!!!!!!!