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Miss, Seems I have maore bad days than good lately. Not that I'm messing up or anything. Just a lot of doubts. I am married to the most wonderful man. He loves me and wants me healthy. Tells me all the time that my weight doesn't matter to him. Problem is.. he is slim, sexy, and almost perfect. So what is the problem? Well, I feel so FAT and ugly. Why do those words go so well together? Fat and ugly. Anyway, it seems the more I lose the further away my goal appears to be. It takes so long! I know I know.. I remind myself all the time that I didn't out it on quickly either, but..... You know. And on the one day I manage to feel good about all that I have accomplished, someone steals that from me. My sister is good at that. I try not to even be around her if I can help it. Or, if I think I look godd and you can really tell that I've lost. Then I'll run into someone who doesn't even know that I am trying to lose, and they don't notice. When is this thing gonna really show up? I have lost 30 pounds and no one seems to be able to tell. I can hardly tell. My clothes don't fit too well and that is the only thing that shows me besides the scales. I am just impatient.
How long have you been at this anyway. I've been doing it for about 3 1/2 months. Actually, 3 months and 3 weeks. I will go to the doctor next week. I am so afraid. I always get this way. I am afraid that I haven't lost enough, or any. Or even worse and I have gained. Will they take me off of Adipex if that happens? I know you don't know my doctors, but do you know if they typically do? I think I have hit a plateau. I haven't lost any more since ???? Still holding at 194. I thought I would get further than this before I plateaued.
Anyway, I truly understand and I too am glad to meet others who "get it", My sweet husband trys to, but he has never been here, you know?
Hope to hear from ya soon.
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