crying :o(

[MarineMamaof2]

ugggggg! I can't stop crying and it is driving me crazy. Since Feb, I have had so many people to take care of, that I am afraid I didn't deal with any of my stress and the instant empty nest syndrome when my boys left the same day. Before I met my now husband, I raised the boys for 10 years on my own, we are very very close and them leaving really hit me hard. I am thinking that these pills are making me break down all my strength and making me a crying, sobbing mess. I am crying like an idiot as I type this...why is that? I cried because the bug guy changed his day...I don't even have bugs...it is a routine visit...I can logically see it isn't a big deal...yet I cried. Will this subside or am I a total cry baby? I never ever cry, I am very private and bury everything deep inside. It is something I had to do growing up and I just continued with it. My boys are safe at the moment, my husband loves me, and my dogs are happy....argh! Please someone tell me that this will go away soon. I would rather not be sleeping than crying...this really really blows. I have been on my pills since the 1st and am on 30mg blue ones. Not sure if that matters.

I leave this plea in your capable hands.....any suggestions would be welcomed. Oh, exercise didn't help take my tears away...I was on my elliptical machine and still crying...how stupid am I? sweating and tears is not a good combo. I sure wish I had a girlfriend I could call over to chat with, but I don't do that, everyone always spills on me and I keep myself tucked away, nice and calm. HELP please!

[alykat06]

Well with everything thats going on its quite reasonable to be crying, let it out! Thats the best thing you can do, just cry and you will feel so much better that all of this anxiety is finally out, I would think your insane if you didnt cry over having your sons leave and since you always bottle up emotions you just explode. If I were you I would take a day for yourself, I nice hot bath has always helped me, or reading a book too, I would get completely lost in the book, that afterwards I felt so much more focused and relaxed. The thing I do is just cry it out, it may be stupid but hell its only going to get worse if you dont. You just need to vent, heck do it here, were all here to listen.

[tazgirl31]

Hey just hang in there u will get through this!!!! and like alykat said its always good to just let it out sometimes....cause when we hold it all in day after day it just keeps building up until the point where u cant control it no longer!!!! I know a good cry always helps me sometimes also....we are all here for u and if u ever need to talk to someone just pm us or message us here!!!! (hugg 2 u)

[MarineMamaof2]

Thanks to you both for your replies. I hate letting it out, I feel so out of control. I appreciate your words and will do my best to get past this. It is crazy!

Hugs to you too :o)

[Pug_Lover]

My heart goes out to you! I'm very close to my 18-year-old son who went to college in August. I miss him so much. Sometimes I sit in his room and just cry. Today I was going through some files, came across some of his elementary school papers and drawings, and sobbed for I don't know how long. It's like a death in a way, saying goodbye to my baby and to my role as mom as I've known it for so many years.

I'd think that having both sons leave at once would be even so much harder! Be kind to yourself. You're allowed to feel the way you do. However, if your depressed mood continues for too long (2 weeks I think is the timeline the medical community uses), you may be suffering from major depression, in which case you should consult your doctor.

Hope this helps.

[kymberleigh]

ok ,great now I cried reading the post, my son just turned eighteen friday and Iam so sad. I know I should be happy but it is in a way a loss even though hes still home hes a senior in h.s. hes gone. I was so excited for his 18th b-day and asked him what he wanted to do he looked at me and laughed . He went to an 18 and over club in south beach. I ate half the birthday cake myself.:rolleyes: Kym

[Glenna M]

Marinemom I am in Mesa, if you want I will PM you my phone number and you can call any time. I work but will return your call as soon as I can. I kow the empty next thing with a son going into the service. I think you and I could be a buddy support team?

[MarineMamaof2]

Thanks! You guys really are amazing! I would love that Glenna...thanks. Sorry for making you guys cry :o( I don't allow myself to go in my boys rooms, only once a week to clean them. We just moved and made sure to always have rooms for them, so they can always come "home". My one son has seen his new room, but my oldest hasn't yet, only in pics. I hope one day they will both be able to come home at the same time and see each other. They are only 11 months apart and were very close.

Pug Lover...I will watch the depression...thanks...been there years ago and don't want to go back.

Cheers to a new day everyone! I wish you all lower numbers on the scale! XXX

[lerberry]

My son is a senior in HS as well....he's my only child....and I get emotional just thinking about him not living with me anymore. I basically raised him by myself...my husband (who's not his father) has two kids of his own that are younger (11 & 9) and he doesn't understand how I'm feeling. I keep telling him he'll understand as his kids get older. I had my son young so all of my friends have toddlers and babies....it's hard not having anyone that can relate to what you're going through. I do think the emotions you are going through with them gone are natural and I can only hope that it gets easier as time goes by. I will keep you in my prayers.