One Away...

[PrincessGrace]

Well, I got on the scale this morning and I am one pound away from my goal.

July 2001 - 211/151/150

I feel strange. A little sad. Mostly scared.

Why? Cause I'm feeling pretty good about myself - I had some junk over the holidays, and several glasses (bottles?) of wine. I don't want to get cocky, you know what I mean? I ate the good stuff, but I really did limit it to one cookie, one small serving of scallopped potatos (thanks, dad!), one piece of See's Candy. I guess I'm afraid that as soon as I reach my goal, I'll go right back where I was before...

Maybe I'm not feeling as good about myself as I thought???

Well, I have about 10 phen capsules left, and I bought 120 in July. Not bad. I'm not planning to buy anymore phen. I might try that stuff from GNC - starts with an X or something...Xenadrine? Just for the days when I feel I need a boost or a little reinforcement. But, we'll see. Man, I loved taked phen when I had major housework to do! :p

I still want to lose another 15-20 lbs. (I'm 5'2".) I am in a size 10, sometimes a size 8. I think I'm going to maintain this weight for 1-2 months, then start again. Who knows, I may still be losing if I keep up my exercise and eating habits.

When I walked into my grandma's house on Christmas eve, my aunts and uncles were just amazed. I was a little embarrassed. It was all they could talk about for almost a full hour. I hadn't seen them since my cousin's graduation in June. I have a New Year's party to go to with some friends I haven't seen since baseball season ended in August, and I'm sort of starting to not want to talk about it anymore. Is that bad? I mean, it seems like I should talk about it with the people who want to know - especially if I can be a positive influence in any way, but I'm really really really tired of talking about it!!!!!

*sigh*

Well thanks for the rant. I'm certain no one has read this far. I just needed to get some feelings out.

:)

[Lor]

AWESOME!!!!One pound till your goal thats outstanding I hope I can get there one day! Keep up the good work I'm sure you'll be fine.
Lor :D

[nal]

Congratulations on your success!! I know what you mean about not wanting to talk about it. Last time I lost lots of weight, it was all people could talk about it. At first, you're pleased. Then you start to feel like they must have thought you were a real whale before, while you know that inside you are the same person....it gets confusing.

You may just have to tell people that it makes you uncomfortable to talk about it too much. Ask them to let it go - they should respect your wishes.

I'm sure it is scary, being so close to your goal. NOW WHAT?? Just keep doing the things that got you there. Don't do like I did and think "well, I'm skinny now -- so I can eat whatever I want to." We all know what happens then. :rolleyes:

You'll do fine. Keep coming here for support any time you feel the need. We all need to learn how to handle ourselves once we're where you are now. You can show us how it's done!

[PrincessGrace]

Hello, Lor! Thank you for the kind words - I know you can get there, hon! Just take it one day at a time, and make sure you keep coming back to this board for support! :)

Dearest Nal...
Aren't you just the sweetest person ever? I think that is the best advice I've ever gotten on this board - so sincere and really brought me back to reality. Thank you so much! How are things in Seattle? It's pouring rain here in San Francisco - and it's suppossed to get ugly. I miss Seattle so much, especially the fishermen! ;)

Take care, hon. I hope you have a marvelous new year. Sincerest thanks again for the thoughtful advice - it truly helped.

Love,
Sarah

[nal]

Gee - I said something right? Glad it helped.

Actually, it's a beautiful day today. Some clouds, but mostly sun. I love it here when it's nice out.

My cousin from SF was here for Christmas. I love to visit SF, and may do so this spring. Whereabouts are you?

I love your website!!

[ December 28, 2001: Message edited by: nal ]

[MiSsJoLi]

I am in AWWWWWW! You are 1 little lb away! THat is AWESOME! I think nal said it all, so I will just say ditto. By the way...Nal...Rod and I are going to Seattle in March. Maybe we could get together for lunch or something? We will actually be staying with my grandma in Puyallup.

[PrincessGrace]

Hello again, Nal! I can't believe you like my web site, it's such a mess! I finally managed to buy myself a domain, and just uploaded a bunch of stuff so I could see if it worked! One of these days I'll get around to updating it...thanks for the compliment!

Yes, you said something right. You made me feel normal. You made me realize that I'm not alone, and there really is a logical way to deal with this anxiety I'm feeling. All without making me feel dumb or picked on or like you are my mom. ;) Thank you. You might have a gift there!

I'm working in the city today, but I live in a suburb - Marin County, just north of the Golden Gate Bridge. To me, it's the perfect place to live, I'm 20 minutes from the city, 20 minutes from the coast, 20 minutes from the wine country and about 2 hours from the snow! ;) Come on down, I'd love to have ya over or show you around!

I hope you are out enjoying that sunshine you got today...we haven't seen the sun in about 6 days now...at least it's finally raining! It's freezing here (California terms for "mildly chilly") and has been very foggy and overcast.

Smiles!
Sarah

[nal]

I love it where you are - my uncle, and some cousins, too, live in Santa Rosa. My hubbies cousins own some book stores in the Petaluma, Santa Rosa area - Copperfields. Ever been to one? They're struggling against the big chains, but I think they're still hanging on.

I think your website is so cute - and has such potential! How did you get the link to the fish guys? You're very clever. If I ever get around to doing a site I'll holler for your help!

[marian]

Hi ,

Wow! Your success is what motivates me to try harder. At times I have felt like throwing in the towel.So I will keep the can do attitude thanks to you!

Congrats!

[Liz]

Sarah~

Great job on your weight loss! I know how you feel, you work so hard to acheive your goal to look and feel better. Then when your family and friends say 'you look great' you say 'thanks' and you smile, feeling really good about yourself.

Then, they say 'wow, how did you loose all that weight?' and 'you're so skinny' and 'look at you!'

Then you start to wonder about how you really must have looked to your family and friends. And what is that emotion that comes over you then? I'm not sure there's a name for that feeling: Sad, bitter, irritated, resentful, scared, embarrassed, violated & confused, but disconnected, happy and proud at the same time. I could go on and on.

Here's one way I get over that nameless feeling: I put my hand on my hip and I feel that hipbone sticking out, that bone that I could not feel a few months ago, and I think to myself, 'It's great to be able to feel my hipbone!', and then I smile real big~Works everytime!!

Be proud of your accomplishment. For it matters not how others think of you, but how you feel about yourself.

And keep up the great work! I hope all of us have as much success as you are having!

Xenadrine, by the way, is a very nice pill to take, not as a diet supplement, but as an energy boost. I like to take one or two before working out. Makes for a great sweat!!

:DLiz :D