Check out my new poem

[TonyMontanaOnE]

Depression is the worst but some good things can come out of it:

Why is my heart filled with sorrow,
Why cant I see a better tomorrow.
Why do I sit here in pain and misery,
Thinking of someone next to me.

Why am I always alone, Solitude hurts in time,
I just want a girl to be mine,
To share time and happiness,
to cure my empty loneliness.

Do you believe in love at first sight,
Is there a Miss Right.
Will I meet her and not know her,
Let her walk by before I show her,
How I really feel inside my soul,
empty, empty, empty


Well there you go, comments please!

[dawn65]

This poem really expresses a deep lonliness. I can feel a real sadness and , not quite desperation, but more a wondering if "is this how i will always be? alone'
I feel like telling the writer " dont give up, love is out there if your heart is open to it"

[sharkhunterny]

Tony.....You are not alone. If you only knew how I felt about certain things...we maybe even having the same feelings about those certain things...you never know. Maybe as time goes on I will feel at ease speaking here, but for now I should probably be the shy and quiet type as I am in real life.

[jbaby]

hey you guys, beautiful poem. speaking as one whom is in an unhappy marriage, togetherness ain't all it's cracked up to be. learn to love yourself, and be happy with who you are, and that makes you extremely attractive. as the saying goes, "it's better to be alone than to wish you were"

[candygirl]

oh my goodness that is great it so marks the spot of how i feel sometimes. wondering if there is a right person out there for me too! :confused:

[TonyMontanaOnE]

Wow Im glad you gals and guys like it, it definitely expresses me sometimes, CandyGirl maybe we have something in common! Depression ****s thats for sure im loosing ground on my diet I lost well over 50 lbs but i know ive gained at least 10 back since I started feeling down :>(

[candygirl]

im just glad im not the only one that feels this way. it was weird seeing how i feel in words its so hard too explain too some people some think you should just be able to snap out of it but sometimes it is not that easy. and when i get really depressed i eat a lot and i know that is not good so that is one of my goals to not turn to food for comfort (it usually dont work anyway just makes me bigger bigger and bigger ugh!!!!
happy new year
;)

[nal]

Tony - I've been in the "hole" that is depression. It's terrible. There is a way out. Have you talked to your doctor? Please seek some help. I am so glad I did.

[candygirl]

where is melborne florida ive been to florida a couple of times and hope to get to go back this summer but havent heard of there? :cool:

[Moonwatcher]

Hell....

I say slam a few shots of tequila and put on a happy face. :D

Works for me....just might work for you too!

[Moonwatcher]

Ok now...before anyone jumps in my sh*t for not being sensitive.

I was JUST joking

I too am in the middle of the SAD winter blues and even alcohol doesn't help.

I need the sun...the beach...a sailboat...a good orgasm... :eek: :eek:

Hang in there......good things are waiting just around the corner....I'm sure of it!

~Peace~

[TonyMontanaOnE]

CandyGirl,

Melbourne Florida is on the Beach about 20 min south of Cocoa Beach, hmm about an hour east of Orlando or about 2.5 hrs north of miami. you should come visit, ill let you stay in the spare bedroom :> )

[jbaby]

oh i just bet you would tony, you bad boy. a possible phen-wedding? is this a first??

[candygirl]

i might take you up on that i love the sun so much and close to the beach ahh im going to the tanning bed tomorrow just to make myself think it is warm here ha ha i am seriously wantin g to come to florida this summer. :cool:

[TonyMontanaOnE]

Well I acutally had to wear a long sleeve shirt today so its not that warm here, but cold in Melbourne is between 50-60 degrees. But your more that welcome to visit. I live maybe 5-10 minutes fromt the beach. Also Melbourne and Cocoa Beach has the best surf on the East coast. If you dared to venture into the water. daa dum daaa dum daa dum da dum da dum (jaws song)

[dawn65]

YOu guys want a holiday?
You've no idea what your missing...so here is a hint..and remember even in winter it never gets cold enough for warm clothes.. http://www.queensland-travel-centre.com.au/graphics/splash1.jpg
Sorry phen pals..just teasing..but let me know if you want to come stay here for a couple of weeks to get over S.A.D.

[TonyMontanaOnE]

wow your trying to make me jealous, i would love to go to Australia that would be soooo awesome. I heard Australian women love american men too, thats what aot of sailors told me anyway. Maybe one day i can afford to head out that way.

[blondie1]

tony maybe meeting a women on the internet is your best bet because they see you as a person not as some sex symbol. I have had that problem for along time now.Guys will always make sexual to me and and ask me to marry them when they dont even know me. All they see is the outside and most men never give a womens enter beauty a chance when all they see is a tan blue eyed blonde.I guess after I lose this little bit of weight from having my baby things will get worse. Oh well, maybe Ill go pose for playboy or something.Just kidding!!!!!

[candygirl]

ok compared to the feelin 20 degree weather here that would be great. i even went to the tanning bed and didnt get warm cause you go in froze stay 12 minutes then the bed goes off, and you are just starting to defrost, then you have to go back out into the cold. alot of wind here today so that didnt help. suppose to be a little warmer tomorrow not much though, may even see some snoooooow, i dont like that word. :)

[candygirl]

oh yeah i am seriously thinking about florida in may, and i wouldnt come to florida without getting in the water, i love the ocean, sharks would just take one look at me and run the other way.haha and dawn australia doesnt sound too bad either. :eek: