Hi guys! Sorry, had a busy day, didn't expect to see so many replies on here!

I saw Jasp comment about starting another thread... Jasp, I really hope you check back in and hear what I have to say...
You made a LOT of assumptions from my thread that really weren't fair to me and my character as a member of this site. there are times we all need to vent and sometimes the guys and gals on this site are the only ones who understand what we're going through. sometimes venting may be irrational, i know there was a chance that what i was doing would not work, but when i come here, i may want to blame Dr. Fuddy Duddy and know that I won't be called a "drug seeker". We don't come here to be preached at by someone who is here for the same reason as us. lighten up. (iceman, this part applies to you too)
my responses to some of your comments...
your age comment: i don't know how old you are, but I'm not a child either. I don't appreaciate the insinuation that I have "yet to obtain" the wisdom you have. You say there is no negative tone to your message, but in what way can that comment be taken as anything but condescending?
Your phentermine abuse comment: again, you seem to insinuate that I'm just looking to shed 10 or 15 pounds and am some kind of pill popping phen addict. My bmi is over 30, thank you very much.
regarding my goal, FYI, I was a size 4 just last year, so kill me for wanting to fit into my clothes again. I never said I wanted to get back into a 4. Would it be nice? yes. Can I set that as my goal if I want to, yes. If I get down to a size 10 or 8 or 6 will I be happy? yes. you assume i'm just yo-yoing and looking for a magic pill to do the work for me. I HAD A BABY!!!!!
You should really be careful using the term "phentermine abuse". my bmi is over 30. i'm one of the ones who "needs" it. that phrase is hurtful and divisive.
I think your comments are easy for you to make considering you pay $15 for your office visit. I bet if you paid $125 per visit, you might try to get creative and find ways to pay cheaper for it to. I pay over $200 a month for my insurance premium and have no-copay with it, and it's frustrating that obesity is not covered with my insurance. it's nice that your insurance covers it, but i checked and mine doesn't. so it's $125/month or nothing.
I did not walk in and ask for pills immediately. I gave the condensed version of the story to you guys. It is true that I am tired and I get out of breath easily when walking due to my weight, and that's what I told him. I mentioned that I took phen in the past just to see his reaction, hoping he's offer to let me go on phen again. i didn't flat out ask until i could tell the appt was about to end and i had nothing to lose by then.
I have done the research. Why do you assume I have not? Due to having the baby, I am out of paid time off from my job. I don't have time to visit 10 doctors until I find one that will prescribe phen after I state my case. not this year anyway, maybe after january when I get new vacation/personal leave for the year. maybe it wasn't the best plan in the world that i went in there the way i did, but it was definitely worth a shot. i still think it was a pretty creative plan and will wonder what "would have" happened if the other doctor was there that day.
I find it ironic that in one message you say things like "I also bet you've been on them before to lose weight. Think about it, how healthy is it to yo yo diet?" and "For many this is a way of life. Gain a couple of lbs pop a pill. I bet if someone did a poll on how many repeat users are on here I bet it would be almost 80%". Then scroll down and you say "I've been on them since I have been 18 and went off of them at 27 used them again at 33 and now". Can anyone say hypocrite????
i may not have as many posts as you because I do more reading than writing on here. i don't feel like i always HAVE to be heard. 400 posts in 5 months does not make you an expert. you're welcome to your own opinion, we all are, that's why we're here. so i have to respect that. but also please respect me and the others here that don't agree with you. you did a bad job reading between the lines and making assumptions.
i'm here for support. you had some valid points, but perhaps you should find a way to express them without making the other person feel like you're practcally calling them a crack-head. MY age has brought me wisdom as well, and with that I've learned this: if one person disagrees with me, fine, it's a difference of opinion, so be it. if multiple people disagree with me I have to stop and take a look at myself, my point, my argument. the general consensus was that the tone of your email was rude, contradictory, a bid arrogant and hurtful. I hope you'll take a look at yourself and the tone people mentioned, because if more than one person says is, most likely you don't see it (or don't want to see it) and need to look a bit closer. i'm sure you're a sweet person and you were just trying to help, but please think about what I've said.
Have a great evening!