[AthenaZG]

Trent - You are so funny! LOL and BTW you're newest picture looks FAB! WTG!!

Thank you for the suggestion! Just remember, you asked for it.

What's on my mind:
I still haven't gotten my replacement bankcard pin number so my Netflix account is past due because I had to cancel my old card and I don't have the new info yet to replace the info on Netflix.

Spending the holidays snacking and nibbling has reinstated the habits and I find myself wanting to graze all day.

I feel out of control. Getting the house back in order over the holidays is so overwhelming. I did take my Christmas tree down yesterday and packed away all of the holiday decorations. So that has helped some.

My laundry is taking over my house.

I bought an old quilt machine for $500 and then dang thing keeps breaking my thread! I spent another $150 getting it serviced and it still is breaking the thread! Is it operator error?? Am I a moron? Why can't I get this thing to work! And it kills me that I paid that much money on myself. My husband won $500 on a lottery ticket and so we bought ME the machine that is now taking up half of my basement because it's freakin 12 feet long! So I feel kind of like I pissed away $500 dollars. I can sell it I guess. But that is eating me up.

I've been thinking about my future lately. I always do that around New Year. I hate New Year. It reminds me that time is marching on. That another year of my life has passed that I won't ever get back. That I am just getting older. I turned 40 this year and it was official, I am no longer young. Not even youthful. It's depressing. So what do I have to look forward to? Bifocals and Depends??? That's what ahead of me? Medicare and cat food because I can't afford real meat?

My van broke down earlier this month. Some hose in the cooling system. The guy at the shop was telling me my whole engine would eventually need to be replaced. The guy said I might want to consider buying a new car (I took my 2001 Ford Windstar to the dealership. This was from someone in the service department). My husband says what a load of cr*p. He says the guy only wants to boost low December sales, which may be true but if my 2001 FORD is falling apart I certainly wouldn't buy another FORD! Says he wouldn't have said that if he had dealt with my husband. Still, makes me nervous. I'm afraid I'm going to be out with my kids somewhere and the engine is just going to FALL OUT of my car!!

I didn't pay my cable bill or phone bill in December JUST IN CASE I needed the money. But I'm doing okay and so now I have to back track and pay them. Not that it's a big deal, I just need to get it done.

Whew...I think that's it. Nothing else is coming to mind.

Wow, I do feel better.

Oh wait!! I can't figure out how to post my picture to my replies! I am pretty much a computer retard and I have TRIED to figure it out. Do I need to have a website that the pictures or posted on and then link the picture to the reply? And what about the ticker? How do I get that to come up? And what about goals and stuff, does everyone just retype those for each post?? I'm so not a textual learner. I'm an audio visual learner so if someone SHOWS me how to do it, or TELLS me I'm usually okay. But to read it and try to figure it out myself, well I'm just a moron.

Okay, now I'm done.....I think.