[aLLiSOn714]

Oh you guys I can totally relate! I always got the "you have such a pretty face but" line. My mom is always scared of the health problems that weight brings. She's 50, and about 125lbs, but she has really bad heart problems...although, she's never been overweight a day in her life. Her version of "overweight" was about 5-10lbs. I wish I shared her view. We got in a huge argument one day about my weight and she said, "just because you have a pretty face, doesn't mean you can let everything else go and be as heavy as you want"...let me tell you I was so upset by that. Then she said "everyone has to work at it to stay where they want to be, but you chose to not do that....you just act like you don't care, and that's how you got where you are with your weight". Well, I do, but then it's like the more you think about it, the more upsetting it is, then (in my case) food was my comfort, so then more weight gain. Endless vicious cycle. Do I want to be thinner? of course! Have I been trying to? Occasionally. It's not that I don't want it....it's just that I've gone so long without paying *too* much attention and now I don't remember how to get my behind in gear to get it back. I slip all the time, when I wish I wouldn't. Everything around me always effects my weightloss and it throws me for a loop when I'm really trying to be good. So believe me rene, I can totally relate to that! We just have to remember to not be so hard on ourselves when we fall off the wagon, but to also pick ourselves up when we do. We will get there...whether it be soon, or over a period of time. It's just one of those annoying things that nags you and nags you and eventually you will have your *moment* when you realize that you want this and nothing will stop you from attaining it. I am still trying to reach for that moment, but everyday I feel it getting closer.