[rene76]

I HAVE TO WONDER IF I'M NOT IN THIS BOAT ALONE~
I HAVE AN EXTREMLY GOOD FRIEND WHO I WAS INVOLVED WITH AT ONE TIME~ AT ONE TIME HE WAS A PERSONAL TRAINER AND AN EX MARINE~ SO I DISCUSS WITH HIM MY WEIGHT ISSUES CONSTANTLY~ LOL~ ANYHOW~
LAST NIGHT WE WERE TALKING AND HE WAS TELLING ME THAT WHEN I WALK INTO A ROOM PEOPLE NOTICE ME~ FIRST BECAUSE OF MY HEIGHT AND THEN BECAUSE OF MY WEIGHT. HE SAID~ "HAVE YOU EVER NOTICED THE WAY PEOPLE STARE AT YOU IN A STORE"?? I HAD TO ADMITT THAT LATELY I HAD~ HE SAYS~ "THEY ARE THINKING TO THEMSELVES~ WHAT A PRETTY GIRL~ BUT WHAT A WASTE~ SHE'S TO PRETTY TO BE FAT" ~ AT FIRST IT HURT MY FEELINGS BUT THE MORE I THOUGHT ABOUT IT AND THE MORE WE TALKED ABOUT IT~ I KNEW HE WAS RIGHT. HE FOREVER TELLS ME HOW HOT I ONCE WAS~ AND HOW I COULD HAVE THE KILLER BODY THAT I USE TO~ HOW I COULD MAKE HEADS TURN AND MAKE MEN THINK ABOUT ME INSTEAD OF THEIR WIVES~ WHICH I MUST ADMITT~ IS NICE TO KNOW~ LOL!!
I JUST DON'T KNOW HOW TO TURN THE WANTING TO BE THAT AGAIN~ INTO BEING 'IT' AGAIN!!!
AM I ALONE HERE???
~RENE'