Health, I love this post!! It is so true!! I feel so bad for all my cyberfriends because in the last 3 weeks, I have not been on very much. I was miss talkative and all of a sudden I just dropped off the radar! My friend Ericka lives in Texas, and she had a dream that I killed myself because it is so unlike me to be off line for more than one afternoon. She sent me some freaked out msg's because she could not understand it!! I have a fitness and health group on the "y" groups, and I was always giving these girls support and motivation. Nobody was ever giving me any!! So I decided to screw that, because I am worth this. Why should I sit on my butt trying to make things easier for some other people who could care less if I make my goals? No way. So now I have not posted for a while, and I really don't plan on it. You guys have supported me way more than my own group!! This is what I had hoped for when I started that group, but I had no idea I was really looking for this place
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But ever since I took this leap, I had to get off my butt and do something. I mean just a couple weeks ago, I posted saying how I was too fat to go to the gym. But then I thought about it and figured, hello? That is WHY I need to go! So I go and I am comfy because I wear workout clothes- tank top, shorts, and not a big huge t shirt and sweats. I may be bigger than some of the other girls but I don't care. I am going to look hella good soon enough. It is really sad though, when you see a really skinny girl exercising her butt off and "hiding" under a bunch of bulky clothes. It makes me wonder if I will ever be happy with myself. I am 177 today, and I feel fatter than ever. I went from a Large shirt to a Medium. But my butt is still huge.
huge *****
But I read this earlier, I think Big d said it. I am so glad I started when i did and not later. By the time it gets unbearable out here, I will be almost at my goal. I just know it!!
It is late, and I think I went off a little...but really great post. thanks!!
marly