I agree with the others. You should talk to your doctor about your depression.
Other than that... lets say it turns out to not be real depression but rather your outlook on yourself and life. Then it becomes a matter of choice. You have to choose to be happy. Alter your thoughts by replacing them with positive ones. Be kind to yourself and forgiving too. Try not to make excuses to feel bad either. Don't rationalize allowing yourself to give up on yourself or life. Turning things around is up to you. I have been through many difficult times. It takes practice to learn to cope in a healthy and effective way. Of.. course this may be completely off and you may have true depression. I just wanted to add this to give you another option.
I'm so sorry about your father. I'm sorry you miss him so terribly but remember that he is still with you. You're a part of eachother and what he gave to you while he was here in the flesh will stay with you for life. If he could, I would imagine he would tell you to love yourself the way he loved you. To take care of yourself the way he would care for you and to enjoy your life. He would want only the best for you. I hope you find what you need and can work through this. We are all here for you to. Much love
