[sharper]

I'm 21, and on New Years, my mother decides to take me out shopping. As I was picking out jeans, I got my usual size 10 and then wondered if I would fit in a size 8 since my jeans have gotten baggy. I went to the dressing room and immediately put on the size 8's. They fit snug and I didn't struggle to get in them. I was kind of excited that I fit into them. Mom rudely suggested that I try the size 10's. I went to put the 10's on and they were baggy, but comfortable. The 8's were comfortable in a snug way, and the 10's were comfortable in a baggy way.....which way do I go???
So as I was talking to myself, I said, "I'm still loosing weight, and I do plan on loosing more weight...." then mom interrupts me and says, "We all know you PLAN on loosing weight." She then mumbled, "doesn't mean you will." It hurt me so much that she said that. She has seen me struggle through so many diets, pills, and plans...and different kinds of excersizes with no success. She definately doesn't support me taking phen at all...she swears I'm taking phen-fen, the one she sees the lawyers talk about on tv all the time. Even though I've lost 10 lbs, she treats me as if I'll gain it back anyways.
It just pisses me off and I had to vent about it. She told my grandmother and my step-father that I'm taking phen-fen and I'll probably die soon. I cannot convince her than it is phentermine and that it's safe. i know she's probably jealous, but she weighs 119 lbs!! how on earth can she be jealous? I have always been fatter than her, and she's always been skinny and boney...what is her problem? I thought she would be proud of me. Now she has the whole family not supportive of me. My grandmother won't let me use her weight scale to check my progress.
Arrrgg!!! Anybody have family members or friends doing the same thing? Everytime i go to exercise, she rolls her eyes at me...she acts as if I'll give up sooner or later. Well I do know one thing...I can't find support here in reality, but I know that I keep coming to this board to see support all over it...thanks for the chance to vent
.../sharper