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I have spent so many days with my heart aching, tears welling up at any time, nightmares, not sleeping well, I think I have finally just wore my poor body out. I have chewed my jaw raw in my sleep. I woke up this morning with it so sore I can barely drink anything. I now cant keep any food in my system. I have spent most of the morning making mad dashes for the bathroom. I am still trying to eat and at least all the running is exercise.
I am taking a break. Im going to take a book and go to the pool for an hour and just shut out everything. It is time to "recenter" myself again. I cannot change what happened, I cannot bring back those who are now gone, I cannot stop the chain of events that has been set into motion. I will take it one day at a time, some will be good and some will be a little harder, but I will find my peace again.
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